being angry randomly...

call it stress or call me crazy...either one, agitation and annoyance ruled the day and strangely enough for no apparent reason.

ok, i lied. there was a reason, but it was too trivial and random that it couldn't possibly be the source of my restlessness.

simply said, i woke up despising humans for their weaknesses and wished that i was never 'brought' to this world. can't help but feel like i was way better off in the imaginary land where everything was peaceful and the two moons shined.

what triggered the unexpected emotion? not sure, but i'm pretty certain it had something to do with all the reported cases of animal cruelties.

i should stop caring about anything for the time being and keep my empathy in check.

reality bites...

i was kinda in a crappy mood yesterday..so instead of going straight to work, i stopped by at Gaya Street for a bowl of Ngau Chap..yeah, stayed there until 12pm doing nothing but restaurant hopping hahaha (yeah, had Nagau chap for breakfast and went to peppermint for their chicken rice as lunch hehe). but the morning wasn't in vain, i managed to check on my parking outstandings in conjunction with the 'bulan pengampunan DBKK' hahaha.

anyhow, soon as i got in the office..the blues suddenly came down on me like a boulder or anvil dropped from a cliff. i was pissed off at everything and i can't wait to get out from the office.

that's what i did...the moment i was free after 5.00pm, i got into my car and started driving without exactly knowing where to go, i didn't wanna go home..i just wanna be somewhere else where no one knows me...somewhere unfamiliar.

i had Hunters in mind..but, like i said...i wanted to be somewhere new and unfamiliar when i passed by @Bar...and that's where i went.

so there i was sitting alone at the bar having a nice chat with the bartender about stout when suddenly a couple appeared. i was very much surprised seeing them there cos i was just thinking about calling them up and invite them over to the hotel for my monthly media entertainment. the encounter last night saved me the time and effort of coaxing them over hehehe (Julia and Jaco, if you're reading this..remember, you're booked for next month hehe).

right after @Bar, i headed straight to 'The Loft' at Waterfront and met up with the gidiots hahaha (ladies, i think we're spending to much time with the threesome hahaha) and had another session of endless laughters.

what i'm trying to say is, i like where i am now..no more confusion, no more trying to figure out where i stand. but that doesn't change the fact that i am desperately missing someone hehehe, from now onwards, am just gonna let rationality take control..no more thinking from the heart and just let the mind steer the vessel :).

ps: ladies, if you're free..lets hang out at @Bar or Cock & Bull Tg. Aru. would love to see what other facilities they have and :)

anger...

sometimes when confusion kicks in and you dont really know what to do, what's left is the anger..the unquenchable anger of not knowing what the hell is going on and how to deal with it. and this anger, the fire within, is the only thing which gives us that inner strength to cope with everything around us...

and at times, the anger changes its form to hatred..although only temporarily, but whois to say it wont be permanent? probably not now, not tomorrow...someday.

ps: geez...damn pissed off right now, wish i can turn back time and undo everything...

mood: duhh, am pissed off so bug off idiots....man..feels like my brain is on fire...


hey...waddya know, it's my 100th entry...a good time to be pissed off at...f*** it, i dont give damn anymore...

ps: hmmm...probably i am suffering from mild depression hehe (waddya know, a sarcastic smile there...damn it..)

goodnite...and ciao peeps...