christmas what?

normally, at this time of the year i would be enjoying myself with lots of booze regardless of whether i am with family, friends or alone. but this year around, not only am i not back in my own hometown, i even got the fever which puts my christmas celebration plannings, which is not exactly fun to begin with, to a stall. so, what did i do on christmas eve and day?

obviously, there's nothing much to be done when it feels like you're on your deathbed hahaha. i've been sleeping alot, been swallowing panadol pills and cough syrup and been watching reruns of Bones, CSI and Eureka (good thing my astro was activated right before the holidays haha).

despite feeling uncomfortable and weak, something good actually came out of being sick:

a) it inhibited my need for a cigarette.
b) i've been sleeping alot, which means i've been catching up on my much deserved rest.

well, so much for christmas optimism. in my case, no miracles happened and i am stuck with spending christmas alone with only my tv and internet hahaha.

Cheers :D

what's the rush?,....

27 more days until Christmas!!! and frankly, i'm not that excited. come to think of it, i'm not sure if i've ever been excited about Christmas. when everyone's out there shopping for Christmas trees and presents, i'm here in my own little world asking the same questions over the years ,'what's the rush?' hahaha.

i don't see any reason to celebrate Christmas except for the holidays. if we look into the history of how christmas came about, it's not much of a religious celebration but more to a twisted plot of a certain religious body to assimilate the pagans into God fearing people and waddya know...it worked, well okay, not so much on the god fearing side though haha. so if you think our Lord Jesus was born on December 25th, you have another thing coming for you :D.

anyhow, despite the misleading tales and lessons we tell our children or peers about Christmas, the centuries old effort of promoting the date as a special day turned out to be a blessing in disguise. whenever christmas is nearing, you can actually feel the joy and warmth of the festivity and prolongs until the new year's arrival, and the best part is you don't have to be a Christian to experience all these! :D.

Christmas is a season of giving and forgiving and where love and kindness are spread regardless of who or what you are.....damn it, that sounded wrong doesn't it? aren't we supposed to do that like every other days, hours and minutes regardless of whether it's christmas or not? there you go, another example of how society and religion can brainwash us into shaping our beliefs hahaha.

you my think that i'm a grinch who have something against Christmas, trust me..i don't haha. it's just that, i don't feel as excited as everyone else when Christmas time comes near. it's nice to hear people laughing, seeing people smiling and doing good deeds, but it would be great if all these could remain like it all through the year and not only when Christmas approches.

so what do i look forward to when christmas approaches? if you guessed the presents then you're way over your head! hahaha. i like christmas not because of the date or the season or the presents. i like christmas because this is one of those times where people can be seen as sincerely happy, and a time where friends and family gather. besides, i've known (hopefully i wasn't the only one in the family whose hope of being showered with presents by a red suited fat man was dashed by the wonders of reality at an early age) that santa clause doesn't exist even before i turned 7 and never expected that tooth fairies would appear if we hid our tooth under the pillow hahahaha. despite not believing in these mystical beings, i do still believe in magic as a kid and until now :D.

ever since i started my tenure here in a foreign place, i could feel the pull to return back to my hometown and celebrate the year-end celebration with friends and family. i think i am a little homesick or maybe i'm, just lost to what else to do or where else to go to spend my remaining holiday since most of my firends and colleagues won't be around during that period hahaha.

okay, i'm spouting nonsense again..geez. cheerio peeps hahaha

MERRY CHRISTMAS 2009

in the spirit of Christmas, just wanna wish all readers a very Merry Christmas 2009!! :)

New Year 2010 is just around the corner...:)

the pre-x'mas ramblings :P

Christmas is just around the corner (9 more days to be exact) and i can't help but to wonder what exactly am i going to do hahaha. but come to think of it, it has been a very long time since i've felt or experienced the Christmas spirit.

Unlike other kids, i never believed in Santa Clause and his reindeers. The thought of a big bellied guy in a red suit coming down through the chimney to bring Christmas cheers to the children just doesn't seem right and very much illogical hahaha. yeah, his 'special' abilities could be associated with a simple act of magic but come on people, magic or no magic...why in the world does he wanna go through a chimney? why can't he just go through the front door like everyone else? what about those houses without any chimney?!! hahahaha.

anyhow, instead of thinking about the perverted big fat guy (no offense hehe) i occupied my thoughts about the possibility of extraterrestial life forms who are way more advanced than the fickle minded overpopulated human civilization and just thinking about their technology or what they're capable of is much more exhilirating than expecting a gift to suddenly appear in the middle of the night (which i've always known they were of my parents doing).

i have nothing against this festive season, in fact, looking at everyone's anticipation as the special day draws close reminds me of the good in everyone...of how everyone has that capability to make a change in someone else's lives :).

So....what am i doing for Christmas? hmmm.....probably just drive around aimlessly or call up other pathetic bastards who are in the same shoes as i am and grab a drink or two, who knows, but what i'm certain of...something will come up when i least expect it to hehehe.

i love Christmas, but i don't really have a fond sentiment for it. i love it as much as i love the other festivities :).

ps: haven't been to Church for quite sometime now...the thought of being in one accentuates the hypocrisy in me. but times are changing, maybe this time around would be different..cheers :)

Happy World AIDS Day...

yeah, i know this entry is a bit late to be put up..but i just wanna share it not only as the title but also as a shout out to everyone out there..

so, in honour of the World Aids Day, i have been walking around with the red ribbon pinned on my shirt collar :)...

on another note, got this you tube vid clip from DanJoe's entry...it gave me the goosebumps, not to mention touched by how the song was sung :P...

ciao peeps...:)