promises...

yeah, i've made a promise (or promises to be exact)..and i intend on keeping it true. it may be my pride and ego talking, but hey...a promise is a promise, and it should be seen through until the end..it may be a loss to either parties, but there may also be that silver lining which might bring hope to someone else's gain :)....

a not so pathetic entry...

i grew up practically alone, being the odd one and only son in the family has led me to experience life's journey with less help from anyone...basically, my experiences are based on my own trials and errors and in time, i learned to experience life from others' point of view..and thankfully, my observation skills towards people has greatly improved over the years (or probably reading people is a skill which runs in my family...).

the reason for this entry is because, in just 2 months time few of my ex's has either gotten married or engaged and honestly speaking..i am happy for them, and i am quite happy and relieved on my end..

looking back on my relationships with them, all i can say is...we had a good time. we clicked on every level and can even talk about practically everything, and i could've been their perfect boyfriend if it wasn't for my own insecurity. the insecurity didn't stem from jealousy, but instead..from my own twisted perception on the relationships. then again, back then..i didn't know what love was..and i dont think i know what love is now, well..for quite sometime, i thought i've found love but apparently the notion itself remains vague up until this very minute. but i do care for them deeply though..

as i was saying, i was feeling insecure. i couldn't shake the feeling that they're better off with someone else better than i am, and being able to see beyond the present situation..i began to distance myself and eventually broke it off with them. yeah, i may sound like having a commitment issue..but i don't..not really i think..it's just that, knowing what'll happen next overwhelms the what could've beens.

but do i regret it? no, but i do feel guilty of not being able to explain the entire truth to them, i just couldn't tell it straight to their face that 'i've seen your future, you would someday end up with someone else better than i am'..i mean, who would believe such a thing? hehe.

that was why i beat myself up badly on my recent breakup, for once i wanted to prove myself wrong cos i thought, maybe..just maybe, if i had put in enough effort things might turn out differently..haha, yeah silly isn't it..in the end, it happened just as i've foreseen it.

haha, i'm not saying that i have the sixth sense thingy, but there are just some things, after taking into account an individual's personality and the current situation, the truth or the so-called future can be revealed :).

to the ladies who was for a brief moment a part of my life, thank you for being there. all i can say is that, you're now with someone with calibre and more successful than i could ever be and i'm happy for you ladies :). guess wat...this song is for you...

TO ALL THE GIRLS I'VE LOVED BEFORE - Julio Iglesias & Willie Nelson

To all the girls I've loved before
Who travelled in and out my door

I'm glad they came along

I dedicate this song

To all the girls I've loved before.

To all the girls I once caressed

And may I say I've held the best

For helping me to grow

I owe a lot I know

To all the girls I've loved before

The winds of change are always blowing

And every time I try to stay

The winds of change continue blowing

And they just carry me away.

To all the girls who shared my life,

Who now are someone else's wives

I'm glad they came along

I dedicate this song

To all the girls I've loved before.

The winds of change are always blowing

And every time I try to stay

The winds of change continue blowing

And they just carry me away.

To all the girls we've loved before

Who travelled in and out our door

We're glad they came along

We dedicate this song

To all the girls we've loved before.

To all the girls we've loved before

Who travelled in and out our door

We're glad they came along We dedicate this song

To all the girls we've loved before.

ps: hmm...just replace the 'love' to 'care' okay..i never said i love you girls throughout our relationship did i? yeah..and you girls had to get hitched within a few weeks from each other eh. was that some kind of subtle payback? hehehe. dont worry bout me, i've stopped searching and now just doing what special single guys does..having practices and fun until the person comes along..if ever...:)

the fat bastard...

what was i doing? posting a sappy entry haha. had to remove it from this blog and save it somewhere else. promised you peeps that i won't be posting anything pathetic anymore didn't i? hehehe.

anyhow, just so you know..the mind over matter thingy worked and guess what, am now in total pink of health, didn't even get the fever hehehe. then again, probably the exercise from the jogs and playing ultimate frisbee helped :).

yeah, you heard me right...am now trying to get back in shape, hopefully better than i was 3 years ago. and so far, i've lost about 2kgs in just a week's time (hey, i once lost 10kgs in 3 weeks time okay, so don't be surprised..apparently i can easily lose weight as long as i exercise hehe. but losing the 10kgs required daily exercise such as jogging everyday for more than 30mins hehe). but this time, am just gonna lower it down to 78kg, i think that should be my ideal weight (am 83 kg now :P) and if i were to speed up the pace..i need to start doing the daily exercise :).

the only thing i really need to lose is my beer belly...yeah, i have a beer belly!! hahaha. but i just can't be bothered to do the situps :P. so for starters, am gonna cut down on my drinking spree for a couple of months and see how it goes. one thing about having a beer belly is that...you can actually feel the fats wobbling around everytime you run, and it's damn uncomfortable, it actually interferes with the body balancing (well, that's my opinion :)). even when i lost the 10kgs, i didn't see any difference on my tummy..darn it...gotta start doing those damn situps again...

anyhow:

this was me approximately 3-4 years ago: The skinny me (70kg)...
picture taken: after few rounds of rough housing and hardcore sparring with a room mate hehe
mode of exercise: full court basketball game from 4pm until 8pm *or volleyball from 5pm to 7pm *or badminton from 6pm to 9pm and silat/taekwondo on alternate days from 7pm to 9pm..(* indicates whichever starts first)
diet: rice and mostly vegetables and once in a blue moon meat..

this was me approximately 2-3 years ago: still acceptable (75kg)...
picture taken: after cleaning up the room :)
mode of exercise: basketball 3 on 3 (or sometimes full court), volleyball, badminton and martial arts but only according to mood swings or availability.
diet: rice, mostly vegetables and eggs (occasional meat)

this is me as of few months ago!!: the big bellied fat assed bugger muahahahha.
picture taken: the second jump from the jetty
mode of exercise: constant boozing!!
diet: booze and anything goes (hey, i may be fat but still as agile :P) hehe

ps: i wonder...a change in 3 months? hmmm....we'll see about that :p...but i think i injured my foot (i think the bone on the side of the talus) from jumping around trying to catch the frisbee...damn it..hehe

g'nite peeps hehehe...

Whoring with Chores - tagged by Wel

Wel, if you think this tag is amusing, that only means one thing....YOU HAVE TOO MUCH FREE TIME IN YOUR HANDS!! hahaha.

here goes :)

RULES:

1. List down the household chores you HATE and WHY. Do you think you can survive without helpers and nannies?

2. Copy the image above

3. Tag as many you want - wifes, hubbies, mommies, daddies and even grannies can also join..

4. Add your blog's link in the domesticated divas linky love.

5.) Leave a comment at Stripe and Yellow to be added into the master list as seen below...

DOMESTICATED DIVAS: Living the Healthy Life / Stripe&Yellow / Vanity Kit / Mind Bubbles / Something Purple / Em's Detour / Me,Myself+2 / Kidd Designs / FunFierceFabulous / Ozzy's Mom / Insights from the Grocery Cart / Living A' La Mode / God's Best Gift / MommyAllehs Up-Close And Personal / My Precious Niche / Just Me.. Eds / Eds Mommy Life / Aggie Shoots Aggie Scraps / All Kinds of Me Stuff / The Salad Caper / Winding Creek Circle / InkBabyStudios / Joys in Life / Me and Mine / Little Peanut / Creative in Me/ Pea in a Pod / Sugarmagnolias / Notable Bistro / Around the World / I am Mommy / All About The Memories / Enchanted Play / In Depth / A Housewife's Journal / Life Together Starts / As We Face Forever / My Happy Place /Iam Dzoi / Suburban Sass / To the Moon and Back / Raising Sandy / Walk on Red / All Things Me / Because Life Is Fun / Feels Like Home / Growing up with Bea / My life... my own piece of heaven / Around the World / Hobbies and Such / My life in this Wonderful World /My Online World / / My Virtual Closet / My Views On My So Called Life / The Real Deal The Real Me / Changing Lanes/ Pit Stop/ Around the World / The Fountain Of Happiness / The Joy Of Life Forever / Love Is / Phtographic Memories / My Colorful World / Strawberry Gurl / Quicker8 / Mommy's Little Corner / The Dawn That Shines / Journey to Prosperity / Homelife / Sheng's Simple Thoughts / Coriander Dreams / Gorgeous Traveller / A Traveller's Domain / Lemon Iced Tea / It's My Party / My Wonderful Life / Simple Life, Simply Me / Sassy Finds / All things Yummy / Shangrila Journey / My Charmed Life / Mommyhood and Me / Crissy's Zone / Crissy's Library / Vis Vires /Crissy's Haven / My Daily Thoughts / Abby's Way of Life / Princess Bela / Women Xplore / Our Journey to Life / My Planet Purple / And so I am / Arlene's Random Ramblings / Life's All About / Lourdes' Mia / Faery Dancing / Me, the islands and the world / Pinay heart wanderings and musings / Juls Random Thots / In The Spirit of Dance / Princess Vien / Quicker8 / Anything and Everything in Between / Designs By Vhiel / Vhiel's Corner / Can of Thoughts / A Mother's Stuff / housewifeatwork / Kuting’s Place / My Daily Thoughts / Pinay heart wanderings and musings / Watchamacallit! / Nellypie's Chatterbox/ Purpled Sky / Almanac Queen / Caramel Corn / Sunny Side Up Foodie / Mamakshop / Alamakoioi / JoZe's Crap / My Sweet Escape / Our Little Princess Gwen / Writing 50% in jest / Designated Hermitage / JerryInc

hmm...chores that i hate huh..lemme see...

chore: washing the dishes
why?: cos i'm a lazy bastard...duh...

chore: ironing
why?: i'm just plain lazy!!

chore: sweeping
why?: too much work..

chore: washing the car
why?: just lazy and too much work...

hmmm...i'm actually quite a neat and tidy person, even if my place is in a mess, i would rather clean it up myself than having someone to do it for me (at least i would know where the stuff are kept hehe).

so that's all i think. now, the tagging:
1. Mel
2. Yo
3. Kupi

it doesn't really matter if you peeps wanna do it or not....i don't mind not knowing hahaha..

ciao hehehe..

ps: bah Wel..suda terjawab aa hehehe

Pictures from Saturday night at Rumba - Flip Flop Party 2

Tongue in action huahuahua

the happy couple :)

another tounge in action

Thelca, Tess, Suz @ Ching ching, Pam

Steve & Suz

Stacey & Lee Rod (band drummer)

Tess, Suz & Steve

Ollie, Mark, Kit and Judith

Thelca & I

Dennis and I

Ollie, Mark & Suchen

ermm...that's all peeps.

wake up ignorant bumiputeras...

Paper: New Sabah Times

Date: Saturday, August 16 2008.

Page: 4

Title: 2,000 UiTM Sabah students stage peaceful march.

yeah, the headline says it all. how shallow and ignorant can our own bumiputera be? apparently, the students are in protest with the recent Selangor Menteri Besar proposal to allocate a 10% quota for non-bumiputera students into the reknowned Uni.

well, this is the fourth procession after Shah Alam, Kelantan and Perak, and what pissess me off is that our own Sabahans students are doing it!! hey come on, just because their Student's Representative Council President were coaxed by his peers from the other branch to do the rally doesn't mean the rest of the students has to follow. in a way, this is quite a shameful act from a distinguished local Uni..and in first glance, it would look like racism.

According to the president, "this gathering of the students signifies our spirit to safeguard the rights of the Bumiputera nationwide in regard to pursuing studies in UiTM", he added, "UiTM is the only public University left that gives special attention and care to the Bumiputeras. It is unbecoming for one to change the comfortable position that we are enjoying now as bumiputera students". ---->> geez, total bullcrap dude. just shut your pie hole if you're doing this at the request of your peers or superiors, do you really think that your so called special attention and care will be taken away for a bunch of minorities? and for those cows who got herded by the president...WAKE UP!! besides, because of the so called special attention and care, most of the students take granted for what they have.

to all the Sabahan students who participated in the march and to the head of council, this is what i have to say:

'open up your eyes kids. do you really believe that by agreeing to the 10% quota would change the integrity and foundation of your so called distinguished Uni? do you really think that the non-bumiputeras around are rich bastards who could afford to go wherever they want to? or are you afraid of losing to them in your own home ground?

if the government can be lenient in their quota for non-bumiputera to work with them, please do tell me why can't an arrogant institution do the same thing?'

i just can't believe that our own Sabahan students are willing to herded around and take part in this seemingly racist act...i believe all of us were raised to give everyone regardless of their background an equal chance at everything. did you participate in the march because you really believed that non-bumiputeras shouldn't be allowed in your institution or it was the chance to be in the papers eluded your conscience?... typical cows who would let a blind farmer lead them everywhere.

pardon my sudden morning outburst. it's just so annoying reading stuff like this. dont they know some change might be good for them? there's no doubt the institution is one of the best (or may well be the best..only among the local Uni. had a chance at inter varsity debate tournament and i've seen what they're capable of. guess what, i've seen better), but they're still far from advanced in their mindset if they can't even accept changes. there are certain things that should be limited to bumiputeras only, but when it comes to areas such as education and healthcare, everyone should be granted the equal opportunity.

ps: hmm....i couldn't find any article which states "UiTM is ONLY reserved for bumiputeras" although i did find out that in history, it was previously opened for the POOR and MARGINALIZED Malay race to keep up with their tertiery education. hmm...gets me thinking then, probably those well off so called bumiputeras shouldn't even be considered into the Uni.

then again, if they wanna live in their own arrogant and ignorant little world..then so be it, these times are changing. we need a mindset on par with international standard, not a mindset of a 40yrs old status quo. a change is needed if we are to improve ourselves...idiots...

now..this is the rambling of an ex-vice president of a student body council (who won the most votes but didn't become president because of religion..) donkey years ago. wasn't really favored by the president, management and student affairs cos i was constantly in disagreement with them (hey, there are things that needs to be considered before making a decision and i wasn't afraid to say my mind...heck, i got more respect from my peers than the president himself. probably that's why stupid leaders piss me off hahaha) and sided more to my fellow students (another reason for participating in the election, aside from the glory and how good it would look in my resume, to make a change for the better with due considerations).

morning peeps!!

the mantra...

body aches all over from the ultimate frisbee game yesterday..not to mention the fever which is gradually catching up....

i'm not going to be sick, i'm not going to be sick, i'm not going to be sick, i'm not going to be sick...

ps: i am getting sick....damn it...2 more days, i just need couple more days and i'll be better...