it has been quite awhile since i last overwhelmed myself with senseless thoughts, and it feels kinda good and freaky at the same time.
i once mentioned that i used to have a long walk or drive alone just to clear my mind off things, the solitary journey seems to be therapeutic in a sense i get to contemplate basically about anything which has been bothering me and the best part is...i've been doing this since i was 17, without anyone actually knowing it except a couple of my cousins who has seen me wandering aimlessly at the side of the road in the middle of the night when the full moon was shining haha.
yet last night was a bit different, i was subconsciously doing it..in other words, it just happened and the worst part was, i don't remember what i was thinking and i can't exactly recall what i was feeling...
don't get me wrong, everything is going just fine with me. i wasn't depressed or anything, and i wasn't even thinking about anything depressing (the past can't really make you do anything if it's already a blur, hey..i do have a life, a familiar and better life..). it's just that, after not doing it for quite sometime..the feeling seems a bit weird, but the moment i reached home i felt very content as if everything was left at the place i stopped when i realized my mind has been wandering :).
it was 9.30pm and was on my way from my cousin's place to get myself some DVD's in Penampang. Driving back on the shortcut, i was contemplating whether to join them for the camping trip in Kota Marudu for 2 nights and that was the last thing i kinda remembered because from one thought it jumped to another and the process went on and on hehe. the realization that i had passed my house was when i was just few metres away from actually reaching the Menggatal town haha.
i'm not really sure what happened, could probably be because i was just getting familiar again with what i used to do or probably it has something to do with the rain (what can i say...i love the rain, very much :P). anyhow, i stayed up late last night watching 3 movies in a row and i'm planning to do 4 movies tonight hehe.
ps: i gain strength from being alone, wisdom from observing the people around me and grounded by the people i call friends..:). nah, i won't be joining in the camping trip..might as well spend my weekend trying to finish watching all the DVD's hahaha
i once mentioned that i used to have a long walk or drive alone just to clear my mind off things, the solitary journey seems to be therapeutic in a sense i get to contemplate basically about anything which has been bothering me and the best part is...i've been doing this since i was 17, without anyone actually knowing it except a couple of my cousins who has seen me wandering aimlessly at the side of the road in the middle of the night when the full moon was shining haha.
yet last night was a bit different, i was subconsciously doing it..in other words, it just happened and the worst part was, i don't remember what i was thinking and i can't exactly recall what i was feeling...
don't get me wrong, everything is going just fine with me. i wasn't depressed or anything, and i wasn't even thinking about anything depressing (the past can't really make you do anything if it's already a blur, hey..i do have a life, a familiar and better life..). it's just that, after not doing it for quite sometime..the feeling seems a bit weird, but the moment i reached home i felt very content as if everything was left at the place i stopped when i realized my mind has been wandering :).
it was 9.30pm and was on my way from my cousin's place to get myself some DVD's in Penampang. Driving back on the shortcut, i was contemplating whether to join them for the camping trip in Kota Marudu for 2 nights and that was the last thing i kinda remembered because from one thought it jumped to another and the process went on and on hehe. the realization that i had passed my house was when i was just few metres away from actually reaching the Menggatal town haha.
i'm not really sure what happened, could probably be because i was just getting familiar again with what i used to do or probably it has something to do with the rain (what can i say...i love the rain, very much :P). anyhow, i stayed up late last night watching 3 movies in a row and i'm planning to do 4 movies tonight hehe.
ps: i gain strength from being alone, wisdom from observing the people around me and grounded by the people i call friends..:). nah, i won't be joining in the camping trip..might as well spend my weekend trying to finish watching all the DVD's hahaha
4 comments:
yeah jerry..we become stronger when we're alone..not lonely though...we observe people we admired and disgusted to learn be better...long drive..were u in the same state as I am..lack of beer?haha...cheers bro..
very true Wel, don't know about the others but i seem to function very well alone hahaha :P.
i am in lack of beer but hey...i kinda like the current state i'm in hehehe
current state?haha..ya la waras kan..so mcm2 tu thought keluar...simple and small things pun susa mau ignore..haha..that's the interesting of being sober i guess..haha...
well...when clarity kicks in, everything else is hard to overlook lah hahaha
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