Monday, September 29, 2008

the HOT date hahaha

things i learned from my hot date:

a) true love doesn't really exist..
b) getting over someone is just like passing through hell on earth
c) some people can be jerks...
d) when you love someone..the feeling stays with you for a very long time
e) i think i am better off with the way i am commitments, and no strings attached...

ps: am slightly over tipsy, and trying hard to be rational :).. feelings are just crap. there's no point to think about anyone when you don't even matter... hahaha. how stupid can a person be hehehe.

the lone brick is getting tougher :P....

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Wacky WEDnesday...

one of those weird days where someone sees me as someone i'm not :)...

'are you Chinese?'


'what are you?'

'a sino..'

'owh, do you speak Chinese?'

'hmm..not really..'

'do you speak Dusun then?'

'hahaha, nooo' (laughing moderately..)

said something in Dusun which, after translation says 'it's a waste not being able to speak either language'

'yeah, well..too bad', replying with a smile which actually showed the gritted teeth. frankly, that wasn't bad at all, but the cherry on the topping would be:

'you know what, you should join MANHUNT'

laughing out loud (professionalism doesn't apply in this situation, the hell with what my boss thought of it haha), i responded 'i'll pass..'

'no, you should..or better yet, you could represent your company'

another laughter followed, 'hahahaha, the only time you will see me parading on stage is when i have my six packs hahaha'...

'well, think about it' and the guy kept on smiling...

didn't stay long with them though, decided to split as i didn't like how the conversation started and where it was heading :).

you might be wondering who these people are, well..they're from one of the modeling agency in town. been dealing with them for the past few days cos we needed some talents for the resort photoshoot which will kickoff in October. would've stayed and actually take part in the discussion if it weren't for the bad start hahaha.

after discussion was over, the boss walked into the office and started giggling. only after she got tired of the meaningless giggles did she explain how the scout insisted that she should get me to join the 'beauty pageant' hahaha. but come to think of it, prior to meeting up with him, a similar incident happened. while we were discussing about the talents they have on hand, he suddenly asked me if i wanted to model which my reply would of course be a big no no haha, but he continued and asked me how tall was i and i told him i was about 5ft 7inch (honestly speaking, i dont even know my own height, but i know i'm taller than what i said haha. well, my vanity has it's limit :P) and one question led to another until i felt queasy and changed the topic into something more work related haha.... anyhow, not exactly complaining cos he actually made my day. being complimented out of the blue can somehow boost the confidence and yeah, be more self consciousness hehe...

ps: dont worry peeps, i wont be gracing any cover magazines..EVER hahaha. hmm, magazines for fat guys probably? hehehe. owh and for those of you out there who thinks they have what it takes to be a model..just drop me a line and i'll steer you to that agency :).

ciao and goodnight has to be one of my tiring and wacky days...:)

you don't wanna be reading this hehehe :P..

a colleague and i had a short discussion on a topic everyone might be interested in...'SEX' hahaha. i normally wouldn't talk about this in public or give into lengthy details either, but today, i just felt like loosening up hehehe.

we were looking at pictures taken by Louise Pang here at our resort and one of the picture is a couple embracing each other on the beach..kissing..and she blurted out 'lucah' which means obscene. i wasn't pissed off or anything when i heard the remark, but i retaliated by saying 'if you think this is obscene, then you must think sex is as well'..

'yeah, sex is obscene'

'no, it's only obscene if you think it is'

'no, sex is obscene but not love making'

'what's the difference lah?'
i said, and she gave out this explanation in relation to human emotion..duh hahaha, which i then replied 'yes i agree, but putting aside those lovey dovey factor, love making and sex still requires two people performing coitus, or simlpy saying two naked people enjoying each others' warmth and you know..satisfaction/s hahaha' (yeah, i did laugh at my own answer reply hehe). she didn't reply though, probably because she knew i could get her at anything she throws at me hahaha.

the only reason i wanted to defend the picture was because i find it kinda romantic, (hey, i can be romantic aa hehe) stimulating but most of all, envious haha. yeah, i dont think i would have the guts to do it in public :P.

anyhow, i don't blame her for having that perception cos i once looked at it the same way (that was like ages ago!! hehe) and i do understand what she meant when she said 'sex is only to be acted with the one person which matters the most' (a bit subjective right, one person could perceive everyone as the 'one' depending on their attributes..that's why affairs and monogamy exists).

now, there is a difference with having sex with an acquaintance, a stranger and with someone we really care the most:

a)the acquaintance/s
- casual sex, no feeling involved and after each session, we'd like to zip it up and make record of the statistics hehehe.

b) the stranger/s
- no feeling's involved, wild but most of the time, it would turn out to be a great session hahaha..

c) the 'one'
- passionate, slow, and damn satisfying compared to any other sessions. and the best part is the after sex chat and cuddling hehehe.

there's also the break-up sex, make-up sex and the less known get-over sex. the break up and make up sex usually walks hand in hand and the get-over sex is a separate entity. the only reason someone goes for the latter is only because they need to have something which could override the best thing they once had..and to have someone to hold on to even if it's just sex haha.

now, there're pros and cons to this 'get-over sex':

pros - good for ego, sex is better cos you don't seem to care much about anything but your own satisfaction, they would look for you over and over again for the great service provided hahaha

cons - they start being clingy, and only look for you for whenever they feel like being raunchy haha. bout' that, another lesson in sin from an idiot hehe

ps: i think i was lucky enough to have analyzed and noticed the situation earlier..or else i would be stuck in something difficult to get away from :). and if anyone of you thinks that being promiscous or sleeping around according to your whim is a great experience..think again peeps. it's no fun at all, trust me :)..

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

sadly, i am human after all...

tired..just plain tired. woke up quite early than the usual norm and instead of the 9 to 5 working hours i signed up for when i first joined the company, i ended up working till 8pm and the sad thing is, this isn't the first (welcome to the life of a Hotelier hehe) :).

not exactly complaining here, but sometimes there are moments when the steam need to be let out and this is exactly what i'm doing..letting go of some steam hahaha. come to think of it, i kinda like staying back late at work, partly because i dont exactly have anything much to look forward to or to do when i do reach home early. yeah, there was a time when getting home on time was the only thing i could ever think about, but that's all in the past...before i was listed as one of the eligible bachelors around hahaha. honestly speaking, i do miss those moments..moments when nothing else really mattered but that one person :).

anyhow, my entry this time isn't about self pity, heck, i love staying back late at work really does help take the mind of things (aside from having a personal blog to blurt everything out whenever i feel like it haha). what i'm trying to say here is that, there are times when staying back is much more meaningful and physically and mentally today :).

tonight, the hotel organized a 'Buka Puasa' session for the orphans from Yayasan Kebajikan Suria. Actually, we've been doing this year after year and the great part is...i never do get bored being apart of it, well..not only this, but any other charity related events we organize, especially when it involves children :).

the first time i took part in this buka puasa activity, i practically cried inside. can't really explain why i did, but when the children took my right hand (which i thought it was only gonna be a shake) and lightly put it on their forehead (all the children were Muslim and i think this is their way of showing respect to their elders), something inside just melted away, imagine how difficult it was for me to contain what i was feeling with over 50 kids doing the same thing over and over again.

the sadness wasn't really out of pity, it was more like putting myself in their shoes and imagining what it would be like if i were them. and there's that longing in their eyes which doesn't exactly yell out 'why do i have to be an orphan!?' but more like, 'if i grow up..i wanna make a difference'. the fact that they somewhat lack that certain self confidence which makes them dependent on the rest of their other fostered siblings wasn't much of a help in putting my emotion at ease :).

there was a time when my boss and I visited the orphanage to send over the extra pastries our pastry chef accidentally baked and no one really knew what to do with it. the moment our car came into their driveway, all eyes were fixed on us as if wondering what were we doing at their place. i smiled at them only to be responded with an uncertain smile, but soon as we took the pastries out from our car, all the children insisted on giving us a helping hand and their uncertainty turned into friendly familial actions. no, they weren't being nice cos we brought them something hahaha, but more like we weren't a threat to their established lifestyle :).

i had a good time with them, we were actually having fun with each other..and the kids kinda liked me (not to brag, but i think most kids would fall in love with me immediately. pretty sure that's one of my greatest strength ever). when it was time for us to leave, the children lined up and started doing the hand gestures again..i didn't wanna leave, i wanted to stay and spend more time with them if i didn't have other commitments to attend to, damn it. until now, i am still trying to find a good reason for me to spend more time at the orphanage and get to know the children alot better.

i'm not saying i'm a guy with a big heart, cos i damn well know i'm not. i just wanna point out that, despite my stoic appearance..i do care, well, some if not more about certain stuff and i try to help out if it's within my capabilities :). i know i am placed here on earth to do something, and i'm still trying to figure it out :).

there will be another charity even going on in December and am looking forward to that day :).

ps: i love children and i love charity, but instead of thinking of it as charity, i'd much rather think of it as a responsibility towards other human beings. so if anyone of you who has any plans of doing charity works, especially which involves children, do count me in..seriously (people think i am kidding whenever i tell them this...idiots haha).

Monday, September 22, 2008

monday..again haha

It's Monday peeps, and you know what that means...MONDAY BLUES!!! arrgghhh...(just felt like being dramatic today hahaha).

so, for the past two days, i've been off from consuming any alcohols and surprisingly..ciggies :). thought of continuing the effort to quit smoking but the moment i stepped into the office and sat at my desk, my stress level suddenly rose and i couldn't think of anything else but smoke hehe.

anyhow, my foot is getting better. been disciplined enough to stay at home and just lounge around, well..not only my foot, but i think i was well rested as well :).

anyhow, that's my update for today. HAPPY MONDAY and okaerinasai...:)

Saturday, September 20, 2008


Sooo...what exactly did i do today? practically nothing!! hahaha. Took my replacement off day today (coincidental timing) as i needed to relax and let my foot rest (yeah, sprained my ankle playing with the gidiots hahaha). Would've slept earlier last night but i got hooked with a book i need to finish reading it for a good night's sleep hahaha (see..i am still a geek haha). anyhow, i am quite glad i slept kinda late last night, cos i slept till noon time..something i havent been doing for a very long time :P.

anyhow, the moment i woke up..i switched on the TV, flicked the channel to STARWORLD and incidentally, Reaper was playing. okay, i'm one of those geeks who is easily captivated with shows which has special effects elements and mind you, i think Reaper would be the next best thing after Angel and Buffy the Vampire Slayer (aaaahhh, the other side of me you peeps didn't know eh hahaha), although i am still waiting for a good sci-fi shows as well which is on par with Andromeda, Stargate-1, Earth- Final Conflict, Farscape etc etc :P (yeah, and i'm also one of those people who thinks there might be intelligent life out there other than us..the pathetic humans hehehe).

I liked Reaper..and i kinda regretted having flicked the remote to another channel after the show was over cos the moment i changed the channel, the remote ran out of battery hahaha. guess what was on..the FIG Gymnastics Tournament (which i didn't even know existed!!), there's just something wrong with seeing guys in tight and short lycra prancing around on stage like little ballerinas with a huge smile pasted on their their face. it's like watching cheerleading with bulge and without boobs hahaha. but, i must say that their agility and flexibility is very astounding :)...

fyi, i haven't been smoking since 12am today..and i'm craving for one. there's an un-opened pack in my room but will only open it if i really can't contain the craving much longer hehehe (see, i do lead an interesting life hahaha..

ciao peeps :)

ps: it's saturday night and i should be out enjoying myself, instead i'm at home much more pathetic can my life be? hahahaha

Thursday, September 18, 2008

the incomplete wall...

imagine a wall, a sturdy wall which has been built along the years...a wall without any cracks and a perfect barrier from any invaders...

then one fine day, the wall fell apart because one insignificant brick wanted to see more of what's on the other side of the crumbled slowly at first before all of it came crashing down and the only thing that's left is the base which once held everything together. imagine that..a wall which practically took a lifetime to build was destroyed in just a short time.

after much struggle of trying to rebuild what was destroyed, each brick finally came together to form the once proud protective barrier, but something is just isn't right. even with the new and improved form, there's that same brick which keeps falling down as if saying 'there might still be hope cos once i do decide to be in place, all will be lost for good'...

so there lay the brick on the ground, losing hope as days go by. it's just a matter of time until the brick settles in its place and the wall is finally complete.. and nothing else can get through ever again, creating a world of total bliss in pure ignorance and a perfect barrier from the harsh reality of the other side of the wall...

for the time being, the incomplete wall would have to wait patiently and look down with mixed emotions at the solitary brick until it finally decides to return and fill up the gaping hole...

until then...there's still hope...

ps: wat can i say...i just think too much hahaha

ciao peeps..and goodnight...

Monday, September 15, 2008


guess what...i just realized that.....

PRETENDING TO BE BUSY IS NO EASY TASK! DAMN IT... especially when you're always looking at the time and wishing it's already 5pm. maybe i should be at Langkah Syabas with the beautiful gidiots hehehe....

now, that feels alot better hahahaha..

Happy Independence day to all Sabahans :). ciao...and have fun where ever you are and whatever you do (who am i kidding, it's a holiday're definitely having fun and that includes the rest of the week hahaha..:)).

ciao peeps :)

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Raja Petra...again?...

I was reading the news this morning when i stumbled on an article of Raja Petra's arrest for his articles in Malaysian Today.

One thing that every press should know is that, everyone has that innate curiousity which drives them to know and learn stuff, and the drive gets stronger when something is sensationalized. so my entry this time, i'm blaming it on the media :).

Headline: Raja Petra Detained Under ISA

Date: September 13, 2008

KUALA LUMPUR: bla bla bla (not gonna include the entire article out hahaha)...
'He reportedly incited Muslims on the article " (a) I Promise To Be A Good Non-Hypocritical Muslim" which contained sentences that ridiculed Muslims besides allowing a commentary on which ridiculed Islam and Prophet Muhammad with references to the article " (b) Not All Arabs Are Descendants Of The Prophet" published in the Malaysia Today blog'.....

Okay, personally..i don't like getting involved in politics (i don't even like politics haha!!), but the only thing that struck me most about his arrest is the fact that he was just voicing out his own point of view..then again, we're not living in a fully democratic country. so one little bug got crushed cos he was being a nuisance to the major league beetles hahaha.

Put it this way, i am glad that there are laws and legislations which keeps everything in peace and order, but someone once told me that these laws and regulations are also the reason behind all the reported crimes and wrongdoings, in a twisted is kind of logical when we think about it hahaha. take speeding for example, we won't get any speeding summonses if there weren't any speeding regulations hehehe.

anyhow, back To Raja Petra's articles. yeah, i read through both articles and honestly saying...i didn't see any faults to what he said. take article (a) for example, everything which was written (except for the part where he quoted PKR's opposition leader's statement) has some truths to it (okay, i don't like to talk about religion as well, especially when it comes to comparing them and i do not condone blaspheming other religion whether it's your own or others). all he did was pointing out the obvious facts. i bet most readers must've overlooked this paragraph:

"Yes, there are good Muslims and bad Muslims, there are also good people of other religion and bad people of the other religions" - Raja Petra

i bet what he was trying to say is that, "for a country to be great, our leaders must first be out of their conservative mindset and for once think outside the box. be ready to accept comments and rely on them for better changes instead of using whatever is applicable to maintain the status quo. do not hide behind religion and race on the pretext of being superior than the others".

as for his second article (b), honestly..all i can think of... it's a good fun read!! haha. it depends on the readers whether to believe it or not, besides, it does provide a good sense of reasonable doubts on the Altantuya case hehe. but in regards to the title, i did not see any so called 'commentary on which ridiculed Islam and Prophet Muhammad' . i think the title was meant to ridicule the (my thoughts on Raja Petra's perception) two faced lying Datuk Syed,...or i may be wrong hahaha.

honestly, i have yet to grasp the shallow mentality our society has when it comes to stepping out of the conservative side. they're so comfortable with where they are now that change seems to bother them a lot. People, it's time for everyone to grow up and open your minds to the many possibilities there are out there. accept change wholeheartedly and accept the good which comes with it, and yes...negative aspects may emerge from the change, but no worries, it's normal. show me anything which doesn't have to go through the rough patches when paving ways for something new and i will agree with you that we should stay just the way we are for the next decades :).

ps: hahaha, somebody's a bit grumpy this morning..damn it like this is no way to start a day :). and to all the media, thanks for providing us the titles to the articles hahaha

Friday, September 12, 2008

friday morning nonsense hahaha

Your EQ is 127

You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.

On an average day, you're quite happy, together, and content. You live your life well.

Your emotions aren't always stable, but you can go along with the ups and downs pretty well.

You tend to be motivated, energetic, focused, and level headed.

You see the world pretty rationally, and you don't tend to over dramatize things. When things are bad, you know they eventually have to get better.

okay, this is something i grabbed from Claire's blog. didn't have anything better to do in the office so i decided to try out the EQ thingy hahaha. well, the decriptions are more or less accurate. waddya know, i am an optimistic person...damn it!! (yeah right, somebody slap me with a slipper haha).

ps: look at the icon above, it does look a lil' bit like me doesn't it? (yeah, dream on. where are the slippers asked earlier? hahaha)

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Jeremy is.....

....currently feeling a bit drowsy like he just came out from the ocean with the salt water still lodged somewhere in his head and throat so parched and lips so dry he could've been diagnosed as being extremely dehydrated :P....

ps: damn it, throbbing headaches sucks!! might probably grab a book before hitting the sack early..hmmm :). and this just in: 'berkuatkuasa serta-merta, sekatan ke atas semua blog dan laman web di tarik balik'. there might be an ulterior motive here, so wait for the news tomorrow hehehe.

a water lover and natural born swimmer with a phobia of deep and colored waters...STOP STARING AT MY FAT!!! hahaha

goodnite peeps :)...

vanity in sports muahahahaha

aside from the ultimate frisbee practice i join every weekend, it's been quite sometime since i last did any actual sports hehe, and last night's activity was, how may i say it, could be an addictive game hahaha. yeah, i had fun and i think i would stick to it. then again, that's what i've said on most of the other sports i dabbled in hahaha.

but honestly, i think i have a knack when it comes to racquet games (contrary to what Mel said about guys being good at anything which involves whacking stuff hahaha) or any hand related sports haha. i can be better in badminton if i hadn't stopped playing donkey years ago, i could be good in tennis if i had someone to coach me and the same can be said for squash hahaha. read me right, am now learning to play squash courtesy of ms. Mel and ms. Yo hahaha.

i think playing sports runs in my family. my dad used to be extremely active in sports and all my other sisters seem to have picked up his athletic abilities. he played practically everything like football, tennis, badminton, squash, snooker, bowling, etc. yeah, everyone was a sportsman and woman except for me and my mom haha, and all these while i thought i just didnt have what it takes to be one :p.

apparently, i was a late bloomer (or maybe i was suffering from some kind of inferiority complex thingy haha). i only picked up sports in college and i must say, i've been doing fairly well since then hehe (well, obviously not at the present moment haha).

anyhow, the new racquet games that i've tried out this year (tennis and currently squash) isn't that difficult to comprehend, this may sound strange..but i think i remember how people play the games from looking at my dad play way back when i was still a kid (okay..more like a toddler haha) and listening to comments wether it was directed at me or someone else. probably those times looking at my dad having fun at the court made an impression on me, which in the course of growing up was suppressed until i was actually ready to explore my latent talents hidden within haha.

sadly enough, i never got interested in football. i remember playing that game in P.E class back in primary school and when i was on duty during one of our Red-Crescent Co-Cum activity, i saw a kid got kicked right above his right eye and he was bleeding all over. no..i wasn't afraid at the sight of blood, but the thought of the same thing or worse happening to me was just too heavy for me to digest hahaha. since then, i've had this mental block on football :p.

ps: the next game i'm thinking of picking up is golf. maybe i should continue my dad's legacy of being a golfer hehehe..just you wait :p...

ciao peeps :P

Tagged by Lil' Sis Joy

as much as i'd like to ignore this tag, i just couldn't cos this is the first tag from my lil' sis joy :)

1. The person who tag/pass you is?
Lil' Sis Joy

2. Your relationship with her/him is?
-> the idiotic sister haha

3. Your five impression of her/him?-> smart, talented, artistic, slimmed down, noisy haha

4. The most memorable thing she/he had done for you?
-> pissing me off :P

5. The most memorable thing she/he had said to you?
-> hahaha, sadly none!!

6. If she/he becomes your lover you will?
-> that's sick...haha

7. If she/he becomes your lover, thing she/he has to improve on will be?
-> ignoring...:)

8. If she/he become your enemy, you will?
-> not be around when that happens haha

9. If she/he become your enemy, the reason will be?
-> hmm...yet to be known :)

10. The most desired thing you want to do for her/him now is?
-> none :P

11. Your overall impression of her/him is?
-> good and goofy kid :P

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
-> i dunno and don't really care haha

13. The characters you love of yourself are?
-> my vanity hasn't reached to that level yet haha

14. On the contrary, the character you hate yourself are?
-> lotsa em'

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
-> wise, intelligent, good looking and successful (everything i'm not hahaha)

16.For people that care and like you, say something to them :
-> ermm...hey you........

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you.
-> They are :
2) Yo
3) Wel
4) Kupi
10) whoever is interested haha

18. Who is no.6 having relationship with?
-> dunno and none of my business haha

19. Is no.9 a male or female?
-> male :)

20. If number 7. and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
-> hahaha, now that's a thought haha. i'll let him choose who he wants no.10 to be hahaha

21. What is no.2 studying about?
-> Yo, you still studying? i didn't know that!! haha

22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
-> chat huh? like...never haha

23. What kind of music band does no. 8 like?
-> i think he goes for ballads haha

24. Does no.1 have any siblings?
-> yup...4 of them i think..haha

25. Will you woo no.3?
-> HAHAHAHA woo him? not my type wakakaka *am actually rolling on the floor laughing hahaha*

26. How about number 7?
-> wat's wrong with number 7? he's a cool guy :)

27. Is no. 4 single?
-> yep..i think, unless she's hiding him haha

28. What is the surname of no.5?
-> dammit, I DUNNO!! hahaha

29. What's the hobby of no.10?
-> that depends on who is number 10 hehehe

30. Does no.5 and 9 get along well?
-> hehe...dunno, i'll ask them later hahaha

31. Where is no.2 studying at?
-> Yo, you gotta clear this up woman! you sure you're not a student? hehe

32. Talk something casually about no.1?
-> gidiot....LOL!!!hahaha

33. Have you tried developing feelings for no.6?
-> sadly, i'm just not his type!! LOL hahaha

34. Where does no.9 live at?
-> middle earth?

35. What colour does no.4 like?
-> hmm...i would guess, BLUE! :)

36. Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
-> they could be, who knows? :)

37. is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
-> ha.haha..haha..hahaha...HAHAHAHA, could be hahahaha

38. What is no.6 doing now?
-> hmm, it's 8.30 pm i would guess he's either out playing badminton or having dinner hahaha.

cool eh hahaha :)..

ciao peeps :P...

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Ne- Yo (Closer)

okay peeps, just wanna share with you another interesting music to my liking :), been playing the music over and over again and i still can't stop playing it hahaha, can even hear it in my head in total silence hehehe.

Please click on this link for the music video


Closer x 4

Verse 1:
Turn the lights off in this place
And she shines just like a star
And I swear I know her face
I just don’t know who you are
Turn the music up in here
I still hear her loud and clear
Like she’s right there in my ear
Telling me
That she wants to own me
To control me
Come closer
Come closer

And I just can’t pull myself away
Under a spell I can't break
I just cant stop
I just cant stop
I just cant stop
I just cant stop
And I just can’t bring myself no way
But I don’t want to escape
I just can’t stop
I just can’t stop
I just can’t stop
I just can’t stop
I just can’t stop

Verse 2:
I can feel her on my skin
I can taste her on my tongue
Shes the sweetest taste of sin
The more I get the more I want
She wants to own me
Come closer
She says "come closer"


And I just can’t pull myself away
Under a spell I can't break
I just cant stop
I just cant stop
I just cant stop
I just cant stop
And I just can’t bring myself no way
But I don’t want to escape
I just can’t stop
I just can’t stop
I just can’t stop
I just can’t stop
I just can’t stop

(Come closer) x 7
I just can’t stop nooooo
I just can’t stop nooooo
I just can’t stop nooooo
I just can’t stop nooooo

And I just can’t pull myself away
Under a spell I can't break
I just cant stop
I just cant stop
I just cant stop
I just cant stop
And I just can’t bring myself no way
But I don’t want to escape
I just can’t stop
I just can’t stop
I just can’t stop
I just can’t stop
I just can’t stop

And I just can’t pull myself away
Under a spell i can't break
I just cant stop
I just cant stop
I just cant stop
I just cant stop
I just cant stop

ps: what can i say, cool beat peeps hahaha :P

my flaws and imperfections...the hell with it :P

People are generally quite predictable...most of the time. we can actually know what they're thinking, or going to think probably way before they realize what they're doing and a glimpse into their eyes confirms what has been expected...

yeah well, people can be nice only if they wanted to..but some are just born with that nature to back stab or bad mouth any individuals with a flaw irregardless of how minor it is and they have that special ability of exaggerating a seemingly harmless and minute flaw into cosmic proportion hahaha. hey, what can i say..behind those smiles lies another dark and confused being set to put in little ideas into the head of the shallow or attention deficit people around them haha.

i think i've mentioned this before (either in this blog or in my other one) that people are not perfect, well no humans are. but this imperfections are what makes them special and unique, the very thing which differs them from everyone else. that is why i never make fun or comment other peoples' flaws and imperfections (okay..maybe i have.. only to those who crossed me!).

it's kinda strange when i think about how someone can ever bad mouth anyone they dont really know. it's one thing to know a person from the outside and it's another thing to know what they really are inside? heck, even if you seem to be the perfect specimen from the outside but deformed in the inside, you might as well wish you were never born haha.

so here are my flaws, maybe it's familiar to some..only because it is an issue to them..but guess what, i don't really care. it's my life i'm living and i don't owe them anything:

1. i like to read, i practically read everything which has words (or pictures) on it. and i read regardless of where i am, be it at the park, while taking a dump or at a pub. so if that bothers you, just leave me's not like i'm hitting you with a club on the head right? :).

2. i've had people labeled me with few names, but the recent one i got to know is 'blog obsessed'. peeps, what the hell was that? hahaha. just because i share with the rest of the world what i'm going through or experiencing doesn't mean that i'm obsessed with my blog (or blogs haha)! besides, do you even know what obsessed means? hahaha. heck, at least i'm making money from my blog hehehe...

3. this one is a bit strange, but i don't see why it would bother anyone. i write my thoughts on a napkin in the absence of paper, and i normally do this when i'm out drinking and when the fleeting and insightful thoughts suddenly pop up haha. i dont't even see why this should be an issue for discussion haha.

4. apparently, some people take offense on my need to be grammatically correct in my entries...and that's an urban myth hahaha. if anyone with good command of the English language were to go through my grammar, i believe they would notice more than 10 grammatical errors in it hahahaha. hey, i may be a perfectionist in some instances but that's only because i have to be due to my nature of work. i was trained to have an eye for details and sometimes it slips out during my social activities hahaha.

5. when i'm drinking, i would occasionally wipe the table or rearrange the items lying around in front of me hahaha. well, what can i say..i'm a hotelier and somewhat a perfectionist, so shut your pie hole.

6. the worst part anyone would say is that, i would only hang out with intelligent and classy group of people. now this is a total bullcrap! haha. i have no problem hanging out with anyone regardless of their status, class or sexuality. if say... i stopped hanging out with anyone, it's because there are things i'd like to avoid from happening or i've seen what they're capable of doing. but i dare say that i do like hanging out with intelligent people, it's the way they think which attracts me and they don't bitch about anyone in particular cos they're smart enough to know that bad mouthing or bitching other people is only for those who has nothing better to do with their life or they just need to be seen as better than the rest hahaha. besides, this is the kind of people who has helped me get over my darker days :P. owh, and i do appreciate exchange of ideas and constructive debates or discussion :).

then again, another reason i don't quite like hanging out is because, i get tired and bored easily hahaha, talk about being weak :P.

7. the hilarious part would be, i would go out or have a drink alone only because i need the attention hahaha. hey, if i were to gain attention, i would be doing a great job being in a group than doing it alone duh..hahaha. like i've said in my prveious entry, i grew up practically alone and after doing it for more than 2 decades..i kinda gotten used to it. it's not that i dont have any friends, i's just not my nature to be surrounded by people 24-7. i would rather have few meaningful friends than being surrounded by a whole bunch of people who thinks they know what kind of person i am (well, theory proven...). then again, i'm one of those people who would still feel lonely even if i was surrounded by millions of great people haha, yeah pathetic..i know :).

so how's this for my vanity month entry :). fyi, i know i'm not perfect and i'm not that nice all the time. this realization has taught me to accept a person for who they really are. i think i can be mean if i wanted to, but i know better not to bad mouth other people :). then again, they're free to say whatever they want cos it's their mouth after all. just remember, i'm not afraid to fight my battles when the time comes cos nothing is limitless :).

ps: so lessons to be learned here:

a) if you wanna bad mouth or condemn other people for their flaws, make sure you're perfect or a saint.

b) just ignore the things which doesn't really bother you, don't talk about it like it's gonna be the end of the world..

now, if anyone of you would like to know any more about my flaws, please do not hesitate to ask me instead of bitching behind my back muahahaha. ignorance is a total bliss :). you peeps be the judge if what was written above should be an issue :).

ciao peeps and Happy Sunday...

Monday, September 1, 2008

new month, new day, new resolution...yeah i know, it's not the new year yet!!

today's the 1st of september and i've been waiting for this day for weeks. starting from today, i will be living my life differently, gonna cut down on booze (seriously), gonna exercise more and gonna let go of the's time i make a change, a positive change for my own good :).

anyhow, i've chosen September to be my vanity month..which means, i will share with you the person i was then and now (expect more pictures of the past and present hehe)..

ciao peeps :)