Saturday, February 28, 2009

the frequent coincidences :)...

okay...aside from my bouts of sleepless nights (no matter how tired or sleepy i am!), one weird thing has been happening to me for the past whole week. okay, some of you may not find it weird but to me, it is weird in a's happening much too often for my sake hahaha.

the weird thing i'm talking about here is my frequent run in with....taa daaa ..'COINCINDENCE' (well, it should be plural since it has been happening quite a lot hehe) :). yeah yeah, i know it's not a big deal and there's isn't much value to it for me to announce it to the whole world through my blog hahaha (then again, since when did my blog has any value? hahaha), but i just find it quite interesting for its frequent happenings haha.

the coincidences are just just so happens that whenever a person suddenly comes into mind..even the most unexpected ones, i would likely get a call or a message from them. now tell me, how weird is that?! hahaha.

i was trying to look for a simple coherent or comprehensible explanation on this topic but didn't find anything much (then again, only browsed through 2 pages in the search engine before stopping hahaha). the closest i got was this: 'Why do we need to explain why coincidences occur?'.

according to the author:

'Back in the large group, the discussion opened with the claim that it is impossible to know whether or not there is any real cause for coincidences, because they are by definition unrepeatable. But does this lack of scientific proof mean that coincidences cannot be meaningful? To answer this question, Guy suggested a distinction between objective and subjective modes of perception: science (objective perception) may be just one among many “narratives” we use to explain the way we experience the world. I suggested that, if the science of coincidence is taken to relate to objective perception, then the proper focus of the philosophy of coincidence would be subjective perception. The important question, then, is not “is something really happening when we perceive a coincidence?” but rather “why do we attribute meaning to some events but not to others?” This is not merely a psychological question, but a question asking for philosophical justification to back up such attribution of meaning.

The scientific criteria for a coincidence to be meaningful is for the event (or set of events) to have a low probability. But there may be alternative ways of providing philosophical justification. One person aptly suggested that such justification depends on a person’s perspective. For example, is the outcome of a lottery “coincidental”? In the most general sense, no, because there is always a winner. Yet to the individual who wins, it will probably feel like a meaningful (statistically improbable) coincidence.

One member who was clearly in favor of seeing as many coincidences as possible opined that coincidence are God’s way of masking miracles. He followed this with an interesting question: do we feel good because we experience a coincidence? Or do we experience coincidence because we feel good? I thought that was a potentially fruitful question. However, nobody followed up on it.

Instead, we concluded on a rather pessimistic note. One person reminded us that anecdotes do not make good philosophical arguments, since they can be used to prove almost anything. Another reminded us that some coincidences can be bad, making us feel worse about ourselves, not better. Yet another added that some people might even blame God for certain types of (unwanted) coincidences. Fortunately, Guy ended the meeting on a somewhat lighter note, by telling a story Jung relates, about a time when he was helping a client interpret a dream about a certain type of beetle, when just such a beetle flew in the window of his office and landed on his desk!'

come to think of it, the above doesn't have much relevance to this entry hahaha. so, enough talking...and have a good weekend peeps :).
ps: as usual...still sleepy...hahaha

Front Page News.... supposed good morning was spoiled when i picked up the New Straits Times with the front page header which read: 'Parliament Violated - Scuffle between UMNO youth and PR members as Karpal is waylaid on his way into the house'.

Mind you, i dislike politics and try to avoid reading any politic related materials. but something like this is hard to ignore when it's on the front page with a very intriguing photo cap!

i understand that politics can be dirty, but trying to make a mess outside the parliament house? what good would that bring? i'm not taking any sides here, i don't even know the root of the incident. but what i do know is that, being political figures, there are boundaries not to be crossed. their words and actions should reflect the kind of leadership they're trying to project and being in the political field, there are bound to be harsh exchange of words, allegations and accusations whether it's baseless or proven. when this happens, everyone expects a clean cut, diplomatic solution because come on people, we are a civilized nation!

now, back to the headline...with what has happened, i wonder which side is given the cruddy look? which side looks bad to everyone's eyes? who has the worst leadership skill? it is quite obvious right? i mean, this isn't the first time stuff like these happened. these people aren't running a political party, it looks more like they're the government approved gang members!

while reading through the article, i was thinking...where the hell are the security guards or police?! why wasn't there any intervention by anyone else aside from the party members?.

these are a few things i would like to say to these people:
1. If you can't handle the heat (wisely), step out of it.
2. respect each other
3. to the so called non-bumiputra party: know our place here, this land still belongs to the so called bumiputeras (which is diminishing with the mixed marriage and all, and soon, the status will remain just a word since there won't be any full blooded bumiputeras to run this country...heck, take a long look at their family background:)).

to the so called bumiputra party: be open to changes, stop trying to defend the status quo. start thinking that 'Malaysian' is a race not a status and the obvious respect will be shown by everyone...

all Malaysians deserve the same rights and special treatments irregardless of their background. this isn't the 1950's or the years before that. things are changing, everyone are changing...everyone now has the capability to take care of themselves, we're no longer living in the ignorant and illiterate era...

ps: damn it...i'm rambling nonsense again here aren't i? hahaha :). peace brothers hahaha

Thursday, February 26, 2009

the optimist...

few weeks ago, i had a drink..(okay, that was a was more like drinks hehehe) with a good friend of mine (yeah woman, you're now officially on my good friend list hahaha). during the course (not intercourse aa muahahaha) of drinking and bar hopping, we managed to talk about random stuff...stupid stuff and eye openers :).

after quite sometime of me guzzling mugs of beers, we came to an interesting topic of love and marriage :). would one wait around for love or would they settle down with second best? (well...i think that's an accurate description of what we talked about hehehe).

i for one is innately conservative and as much as i hate to admit...a stupid romantic hahaha. but i dont simply engage romanticsm with anyone, unless i managed to fool myself into the notion of being in love hahaha.

probably this has been a contributing factor to my failed short relationships, my inability to express or feel love but after my recent breakup, i acquired a new ability, which is the ability to smother the one i thought i loved with excessive affection muahahahaha and since then, i'd rather not feel anything or get into another relationship hahaha.

but despite my nature of being VERY insensitive, i have never imagined myself in a relationship where love is just not present. why? for one, i'm a lazy guy and like i said earlier..a romantic haha. i don't want to work in a relationship just to make love grow. i want to be in a relationship where love is already in place and work my way up from there onwards hahahaha.

but after the talk with the good friend, what she said had some truth to it. i realized that, sometimes love wont happen just by waiting for it. like every other things in life, we have to work for it to make it happen :). and that's my cue to re-think my position. so from now onwards, no more waiting for the good stuff to fall onto my lap and no more expecting things to go smoothly for me :). i'll just work for the things i want in life, in that way..the regret would be much lesser if things didn't work out. at least i can always say 'hey, i tried my best, no regrets here...' or 'it has been good' :).

ps: man....I NEED MORE REST!!! hehehe. morning peeps and ciao :)

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Boogie Wonderland!! :)

Went to bed quite early last night...okay, VERY early. I was asleep by 8pm, but it wasn't a fitful sleep. i was practically tossing on my bed (mattress to be exact hehehe) despite the tireness and sleepiness which has engulfed me the whole day! don't ask me why...what's supposed to be a night of total rest turned out to be another tiring next morning :).

I dont think i dream't anything at all...maybe i did, but i just can't recall it. But the weird thing was, it feels like i've been playing a particular song in my head the whole night! here's a clue...

"Day-light deals of bad hand
(Said) Baby uh-uh, it don't work
(Sung) Baby uh-uh-uh, uh-uh, uh-uh-uh-uhUh-uh-uh-uh, uh-uh-uh-uh
Midnight creeps so slowly into hearts of those
who, need more than they get"......

still don't get it? well, how's this for another clue..
'Boogie wonderland, uh-uh, dance!
Boogie wonderlaaaaandddd'

yeah exactly. i had the Happy Feet soundtrack stuck in my head! yeah, strange as it may be, it did make me feel good the moment i wake up though hahaha.

enjoy the song since sharing is caring muahahahahaha *and may it gets stuck in your head as well hehehehehehehe :P*


Day-light deals of bad hand
(Said) Baby uh-uh, it don't work
(Sung) Baby uh-uh-uh, uh-uh, uh-uh-uh-uh
Uh-uh-uh-uh, uh-uh-uh-uh
Midnight creeps so slowly into hearts of those who, need more than they get
Day-light deals of bad hand, to a penguin that has laid too many bets
The mirror stares you in the face, and says "baby uh-uh, IT DON'T WORK!"
You say your prayers though you don't care
You sing and you shake the huuuuuurrrrrt

Boogie wonderland, uh-uh, dance!
Boogie wonderlaaaaandddd


Midnight creeps so slowly into hearts of men(who need more that they get)
Daylight deals of bad hand to a pengrin(who has laid to many bets)
(the mirror stares you in the face), and says "Baby uh-uh, it don't work"
(you say your prayers though you don't care), you sing and shake the hurt

(Chorus x2)

(Penguin rapping)

All the love in the world can't be gone
All the need to be loved can't be wrong
Oh the hearts all start sing and my heart will keep sayin
Boogie Wonderland, wonderland


ps: good morning and cheers peeps :)

Monday, February 23, 2009

damn it....


1. NEVER leave your car unlocked when you're drunk...even when you're still inside
2. NEVER leave valuable items lying around in the car

i lost a set (500pcs) of DVD roms, a bottle of Chivas and most of KENZO!!!

anyway...may whoever took it got run over by a lorry, severing his head and eaten by the dogs :). i forgive you....only if the above happens muahahahahahaha.

ps: got dead drunk last night...i want my KENZO!!!!!!

Wednesday, February 18, 2009


'i like you...alot...', my first confession to her (and my first at making the first move with anyone :p) during dinner on an informal date from a wedding reception, not to mention intoxicated for the added boldness, 'but i don't think we should be together, it's not's me...' quoting one of those corny lines to express my sincere opinion on what's in store for us.

'i'll be the judge of that, but what exactly do you mean?'..

'i dunno...i just see you with someone more deserving...'

'like i said, i'll be the judge of that...'

deep down, as much as i liked her, i really didn't want to cross the boundary of being just friends...but i think the main reason i really didn't want to go through with it was because, it wasn't love i was feeling. i knew i 'like' her and love has nothing to do with it.

we gave the relationship a shot and it progressed quite well. i basically knew her family and she got to meet up with mine, and coincidently, we shared the same mutual friends.

things were looking up, she was the female version of me...sarcastic, smart, witty..did i say smart? in a way, we were ready to settle down..we kinda talked about it but the thought of settling down with someone for the sake of..marriage and not love just doesn't sound right to me. it didn't take long until love presented itself, my so called first love..or so i thought. so we broke up (kinda), and pursued my new love interest only to be crushed in the end :). i'm just not the type to two timing anyone for the sake of my own pleasures :P.

anyhow, it was about a year after the break up did i get to meet up with her and she was with her fiance and husband to be. she didn't think highly of me when we met up, well, it's only fair after what i did and i didn't blame her the least.

looking back, i am glad that we broke up. she's finally settling down with the kind of guy whom i've always thought of she would be with :).

i know i should be happy with the coming wedding, and frankly i am. it's just that, i realized...i have been missing her :).

ps: dont worry, am not gonna crash her wedding in any way haha

Relief Counter re-visited....

'Lops, if u were out with your ex yg br break up and u wore the shirt that ur ex gave u. Apa erti? Jawab saja k. Cos i dnt knw whr n how to start my conversation:)'

'emmm...that depends on how the relationship after the break up. if the ex is the cincai type (like me), it means nothinglah...'

'Wht if ur ex is willing to see u for dinner bt after that dia tidak reply ur msgs and ignoring u?'

'susa jg sa mau cakap owh. but it seems that the ex is just not interested lah. then again, i don't know the real story so i might be wrong lah..'

'o, d girl yg break up with him and suddenly he changed mcm dia teda feeling with the gal. bt went out with the girl after 3 weeks of breakin up'...

'why would he wanna do dat? something's missing here...'

'Lops ok. Spare me ur time k. this wud be a lng message. XXX n i broke up and i yg ended it. buti regret so within days i cepat2 la to patch things back. 3 days after, we had dinner as friends cos besday dia. dinner was ok. quite. i invited him out again after bt he didn't think it was a good idea. After that we went silent for 3 weeks, then suddenly i invited him hm out and we had dinner. bt that day he told me he's leaving for KL for good in april. d next day, i told him i wanna c him but sd he's got wrk...i dont understand Lops, y must he see me knowing that i still like him? he shud hav just left to KL without havin to tel me ba.'

at this point, i wanted to say 'maybe he's just confused and dunno what to do...' bt decided to keep the opinion to myself.

bla bla bla bla 'is it possible to lose ur feelings in 3 days? He's very ego Lops, time kami break up, dia tdk text me but after sometime when i text him e.g i miss lah dia reply yg dia juga. but maybe everything is all said and done, no point for me to have answers. If that's what you think he's over me than maybe its true'...

'it's possible to lose feelings in just 3 days, if he wasn't serious with you in the first place...besides, if he doesn't know how to appreciate you, than he's not worth being thought of and your time'...

break ups are normally hard when you're not ready to give up on the relationship just yet, or your feelings for the other person is still strong. and it's especially hard when you don't really know where you stand or why the break up happened. and sometimes, you just need someone to tell you what you wanna hear instead of the what is :). hopefully i said the right things....

ps: i am not a relief counter...look me up if you wanna feel bad about yourself. i'm just an insensitive bloke muahahahaha. no wonder i'm still single....hehehe :p

Sunday, February 15, 2009

My Sunday...

My few Sundays has been quite dull lately. Usually, i would be in bed nursing my hangover but for the past few weeks, i haven't been drinking like there's no tomorrow (which is quite an achievement i must say hehe). not that i couldn't but i think i'm just quite contented with myself nowadays that i don't need alcohol to have a good time :). so, for the past couple of Sundays, i've been having breakfast at 'Mi Sup Pipin' (Pipin noodle soup) at Inobong, Penampang :).

Okay, there's nothing special about where the place is located or how the place looks like as it is somewhere off from the nearby town and looks somewhat rustic, with residential houses around.

I wasn't expecting much when a friend suggested the place (yeah...i'd like to keep my judgment neutral before presenting my comments), but since everybody who lives in that part of area says it was good, i decided to be a bit adventurous and try it out myself, and i have the honor of having Ms. Kupi to show me the way hahaha.

Now, getting there is a bit here's a simple way (i mean my way) of getting there and this reference is only meant for the locals who knows the road haha.

1. Take the road to Inobong, Penampang (the road which leads to Tambunan).
2. Drive until you reach the Maranatha Church.
3. Make a U-turn and drive back slowly from where you came from while keeping an eye on the left roadside.
4. Keep driving slowly until you reach a small signage which says 'Mi Sup Pipin' or Jln. Tomposik.
5. Turn into the junction and drive straight until you reach an open stall :).

I wasn't impressed with the place the first time i was reminiscent of a long ago chinese hawker stall with it's long wooden tables covered with vinyl plastic covering and its long wooden chair which could accommodate up to 10-20 people per table, not to mention the decorations... it was on the spot chinese. i was informed that the proprietor is of mixed heritage, but it was obvious their chinese ancestry has been watered down and diluted over the past generations :).

When it was time to order the food, i decided to go with what my friend suggested i try out...their infamous that's what i ordered, 'mi sup satu', i placed my order with the captain.

A friend once suggested i try out the mi sup KB (mi sup Kota Belud), so i did and it wasn't as how they described it would was bland, really bland. after my third time, i came to a conclusion that the soup was just overrated by some people hahaha. so based on this experience, i have been somewhat skeptical on the places suggested to me :).

when i said i wasn't expecting anything from this place..i kinda lied, because deep down, i expected or hoped it was as good as what the others told me but the condition of the place wasn't convincing, moreover when i first had a glance at my order haha.

the order didn't look presentable, and it looked like any other ordinary soup. but the moment i tasted it, i knew it was different than anything i've tried before. i'm not saying that it was fabulously delicious, but it was definitely different, with a tinge of everything. it was neither chinese or local but a combination of both, as if a compliment for someone like me who has the best of both in my blood :). for the first time, i didn't mind driving far just for this.

one particular thing i like about this place is the service. this may not be a high class restaurant, but yet, the famous, friendly and familiar Sabahan service is there. a smile and laughter here and there, even the patrons can joke around with them. take for instance while waiting for Kupi to arrive this morning, one of the patrons wanted to use the restroom. instead of saying 'mana jamban kamurang sini?' (where's the toilet here?), he said 'mana ada jual jamban sini aa? (where do you sell the toilet here?)... a sarcastic joke which refers to the current situation here in KK where we would have to pay a small amount just to enter the public restrooms hehe. the joke by the stranger certainly got me smiling ear to ear and the rest of the patrons joined in the laughter soon afterwards :).

anyhow, this was how my Sunday started, breakfast at Inobong and R&R at home. in just a few minutes, i would head out to the Sports Complex for a jog and lose the fats i acquired over the past two days of bingeing at home hahaha.

Ciao pees :)

ps: . been bingeing on margarine...without anything else, wouldn't be surprised if my arteries were clogged . owh..and i'm on half day leave tomorrow, which means i'm only clocking in for work at noon, or 1pm to be exact muahahaha

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Love vs Science

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY PEEPS!! kind of explanation for the unexplainable hahaha
Love explained 1
Love explained 2

ps: i love kissing...and miss doing it muahahaha

of food and prices...

as i was waiting for my supplier to meet me, i had a light breakfast somewhere nearby my workplace. the choices were limited, every restaurant served more or less the same type of food and since i've tried out couple of them in the past, i decided to patron a simple looking restaurant.

This modest place has a self service buffet style prefered style compared to ala carte orders since i'm the type who prefers to know what the food looks like before gobbling them down :). the servings looked decent, and i opted to have a small portion of fried noodle (good thing i'm controlling my food intake hehe), a slice of srambled egg, and a small scoop of chicken rendang (i think haha) and chilled Horlicks for beverage (fyi, i prefer cold chinese tea in all my meals :))..i figured that all these shouldn't cost more than RM5 and boy...was i wrong, it cost me about RM6 for this meager breakfast!!

i wasn't pissed off, one reason i patroned the restaurant was because i wanted to check out how the prices would be (well, aside from knowing how the food tastes like) since the other restaurants nearby charged their food unaccordingly. suffice to say, i was right and was spared the shock :).

one thing i realized about the food business in KK is that, the prices are dramatically increasing over the past few years. what used to be a RM3.50 meal has now become RM6.00, but on what grounds? tax? rent? the price increase in everything else?

frankly, i don't mind the high priced charges if the establishment is well known and quite established or if they served great foods..but a new restaurant charging exorbitant prices?!! wouldn't that be a way of deterring potential future cutomers?.

i know a bit about the food business having been in it during my younger days assisting my mom in her fish grilling business on the sidewalk, a foodstall on the roadside and lastly, a short try out in the restaurant business. and at times, without anybody knowing i would take a short stroll at the marketplace just to look at the price range of meat and vegetables.

well, aparently..the prices for these items in Sabah are still quite reasonable and cheap and no wonder they're taking advantage of the price diffrence, justifying their increase by blaming it on the tax or rent. then again...that's business, but a business is not a business if they don't cater to their guests' expectations or demands. if they want to hike up their price, then give their customers something worth in return say like...a good proffesional quality service, something which every customer may say 'i don't care about the price, it's worth every cent' :).

Ciao peeps :)

ps: damn it...should've taken a picture of the food :)

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

New Malaysian Funnies? :)

Check out this trailer!! haha

COMING IN MARCH....Will definitely watch this hahaha

Death in 2009....

Dealing with death at a start of a new year is never a good thing, with all the hyped up cheer of starting a new slate, things could take a 180˚ twist to being sombre with just few simple words of 'i'm sorry...'..

we could condemn death for having the worst time management ever, but that would be just plain stupid wouldn't it? i mean, how can we blame anything which has always been unpredictable from the start of time?

i've said this many times before in this blog and in my other blogs, death is nothing to feared. Despite it's nature to come uninvited, truth to be told, we have been unconciously expecting it whether we like it or not. None of us are able to say 'i don't wanna die yet' and goes on living forever until they're ready to give up on life. No, death itself is a master to everyone's fate.

A lot of us out there still gets frightened just by thinking about our own demise...why? mainly because we haven't achieved half of what we want to do with our life, we haven't seen enough of the world and there are still things that needs fighting for. But even with this in mind, even when we have accomplished what we have intended to do, no one is fully ready to embrace death in all its glory. that's because...we are only humans, the envy of all the fallen angels, the offspring of those banished from Eden, and the victims of greed. yeah, greed...that's all what it comes down to.

humans just can't be satisfied...the need to want more never ceases to stop, instead, we tend to 'want' something as each day passess and as it accumulates, we too are eventually burdened with the unnecessary baggage which in the end, results in the difficulty of letting go of this materialistic world....

geez...i shouldn't be rambling on this topic at all, but it's just hard to ignore it when it happens...

ciao peeps....

Monday, February 9, 2009

tired of this topic haha

hmm..honestly, i'm not really in the mood for work..didn't exactly get enough sleep last night so feelin a bit sleepy now not to mention i'm still in the festive mood muahaha (yeah yeah i know, should get back to reality and embrace all the pendings in the office haha).

anyhow, i was surfing through the net and one particular story got my attention. You can read more about it yourself here.

Friends...what exactly does it mean? is it only a word or does it signify a deeper meaning to one's being? i've been getting a lot of emails about friendships lately (maybe it's their way of telling me what a sucky friend i am muahahaha), and i've been thinking whether every single person in this whole stupid world needs someone they can call friend.

the term friend is as elusive as what life means. it's a subjective matter, implying different meanings to different people. Go around and ask, 'what is a friend?' and everyone would quote something similar...just as well, their understanding could be from the same sources.

i asked myself..what is a friend, like the others, i could conjure up the answer out of thin air from what i have read. but when i tried to look at the underlaying meaning, i just paused and went blank...well, not exactly blank, but all the things that i have read and practiced on this matter seem to get all jumbled up.

now...some people would start questioning themselves if they were in my shoes, but i didn't, probably because i knew the answer to that. I am a selfish being, who couldn't be bothered much about the everything or anything around me, someone whois always thinking of his best interest before the others, a sarcastic smartass dude who says what needs to be said without being all sweet and nice (i'm not a buttkisser, my compliments are always sincere and my comments are always based on the what is haha) and a guy who likes to have things his way. yeah...but despite all this, i do make room for compromises provided it works well in everyone's favour :). i a friend? ...maybe i am. am i good friend? i could be, if i were to put in more effort into it. does it matter if i were a friend or not? you know what..good question, no i don't and i don't give a bull crap hahaha. One thing i understand about being friends is...accepting someone for who they really are irregardless of how shitty they are. it's all about give and take, they accept you for your quirks and annoyances and vice versa.

I am surrounded by great people..people who doesn't expect more from me (come on lah, what else are there to be expected of anyways hahaha) and although i am not ecstatic about having them around (i still love my privacy okay haha) but i am damn glad to be associated with them hehe.

Ciao peeps

ps: just refreshing a boring topic which came to mind hehe. stubborn as an ox..or is it a bull, a monkey perhaps? hahaha

Heart to heart?

sometimes, i still don't get it why some people would come up to me and ask for my point of views or opinions about stuff..especially when it comes to relationships, i don't mind knowing about it IF i asked :). i have a sign on my forehead which says 'Relief Counter'? ooo...wait, i actually did say those exact words before giving them my thoughts hahaha.

i'm not exactly one to give out the best advices, but i am an expert when it comes to being an ass haha. i don't tell them what they want to hear, i tell them the dirty truth of how i see it :). In a way, i am quite honored to be their ears and shoulders in times of need and i understand that everyone needs someone they can speak to. But, i am only human and i don't even quite trust my own words and perceptions when it comes to other people, so whenever i open my mouth to tell them something, i would be left with the guilt of knowing that if anything goes wrong, i am partly to be blamed (which i'm glad it hasn't happened yet hehe :).

Everyone has their own problems to deal with, some deal with it alone and some needs someone elses words to help them to get by :), and there are pros and cons whichever way they do it...



a) No one else would be bothered by it
b) You are strong willed
c) No one has anything to say against you if everything doesn't work out
d) More self reflections could be done

a) It eats you inside
b) You emotion would swell to a point where you won't be able to feel anything
c) Conjuring up wrong solutions, adding more problems on top of the existing ones
d)Tendency of being anti-social haha


a) New insights
b) More solutions
c) Shared burden
d) Strenghtens bond.

a) Being dependent on other people on how to think and act
b) People know of your weaknesses
c) A pity case

I could list down more on both aspects if given enough free time haha, but for now..these may just be all.

So how exactly should we deal with our own demons...well, all i can say is deal with it on your preference. Just remember that, whichever way you wanna do it..the final decision is always in your hands :). Part of the conditions of being alive is to face the trials and tribulations presented to us, for nothing can be more sweeter after a good suffering :). then again...i just don't give a damn hahaha

Ciao peeps :)...

ps: what the hell am i rambling here again? geez....Happy Chap Goh Meh peeps (is that the correct greeting for this particular day..'Happy'? hahaha)

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Tagged by Lissa

damn it...two tags in a row? what the heck, since this is her first time tagging me, than might as well just do it :). Thanks Lissa hahaha.

a) Bold the statements that are true for you.
b) Italicize the statements that you wish are true.
c) Leave the fibs alone.
d) Then, tag 5 people to do the same test~

I miss somebody right now.
I love vacation.

I bake a cake.
I do not watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lense.
I love to play video games.
I am married.
I have tried marijuana.

I still love with my ex-boyfriend/girlfriend.
I have been in a threesome.
I believe honesty is the best policy.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I curse.
I am totally smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I am paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really fast.
I am a millionaire.
I have long hair.

I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/ fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller ID.
I like the way I look
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I am a pretty good dancer.
I love sex.
I have a cellphone.
I believe in God.

I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I have rejected someone before.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I am not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I’m shy around members of the opposite sex.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I have tried alcohol before. (and still actively indulging in it hahaha)
I own the South Park movie.
I would die for my best friend.
I love to chat (YM/MSN/etc..)
I think Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watched Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I am happy at this moment.
I’m obsessed with girls.
I’m obsessed with boys.
I tie my shoelaces differentl from anyone I’ve ever met.
I study for tests most of the time.
I am comfortable with who i am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I’m proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I can’t live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake’s slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I wear a toe ring.
I can’t stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie
I have kids.
I’m an artist.
I feel sad sometimes.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I am an adrenaline junkie.
I love being happy
I am on a diet.

okay...i'd like to end this tag with these people hahaha
a) Gidong
b) Bossing
c) Mel
d) Yo
e) Wel

no peeps are free to ignore this tag if you want to hahaha.

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Who is my spirit guide....

took a Facebook on 'who is your spirit guide?' application thingy and guess who did i get...of all spirit guides out there, i got him! couldn't i get anyone cooler?!! hahaha

You're spirit guide is John Lennon.
You are a sensitive and creative person trying to use your gifts to overcome a difficult loss. You enter into collaborations with other talented artists and are able to get the most out of them even if sometimes you have to make hard choices. You try and use your work to inspire others to improve the world and themselves and yet you are able to make enemies. Your sensitivity however makes you vulnerable to manipulation which threatens even your earliest friendships. Be careful!

and the worst part is....THIS IS NOT EVEN ME (i think)!! hahaha.

ps: just passing the time before heading out to Pusakag for the talent search thingy haha

tag from Gidong (dalam melayu lg tu hahaha)

This is my first tag of the year and as much as i dont like doing tags, i giving this one an exception mainly because, this a first tag from Mr. Gidong and my first tag in Malay hahaha :).


1. Tanda2 kamu badmud?
:: hmmm, mangkali termenung panjang lah hahaha

2. Tanda2 kamu marah?
:: dahi berkerut? hahaha

3. Tanda2 kamu sinting?
:: hmmm..buat lawak buduh dan sarcastic muahahaha

4. Tanda2 kamu malu?
:: x brapa pandai malu jugalah haha

5. Tanda2 kamu sedang cemburu?
:: most of the makan hati jak lah hahaha

6. Tanda2 kamu sedang sedih?
:: pa tu sedih? hahahaha

7. Tanda2 kamu tengah gumbira?
:: pa tu gumbira? :p


1. Apa warna baju yg kamu pakai sekarang?
:: Cokelat (apparently, this is my favourite color :P)

2. Apa kah kamu termasuk orang yang suka shoping?
:: nda lah...

3. Apa kah kamu percaya love at first sight?
:: suatu ketika dahulu hahaha

4. Apa yg ingin kamu lakukan skrg?
:: tidur

5. Apa rasa di hati kamu saat ini?
:: dinding batu hahaha


1. Bila pertama kali km dilahirkan ke dunia?
:: 30 %&*@ 1980 (ada kedua kali lagikah?)

2. Bila saat terindah dlm hidupmu?
:: crita bangas suda...

3. Bila kali terakhir dimarahi ibubapa ?
:: mcm lama suda nda owh hehehe

4. Bila kali terakhir ehem ehem ehem?
:: ehem ehem rasa last year. insaf suda bah hahahaha

5. Bila kamu akan married?
:: Bulan 10


1. Bagaimana jika ada org yg buat kamu sakit hati?
:: bergantung sama sepa lah dan tahap dia. normally, sa bilang bridge under water lah hahaha

2. Bagamana kalau ada org cakap kamu lawa/hensem?
:: uuuiiiihh....mcm besa suda tau wakakakakaka. sa bilang 'cool..' haha

3. Bagamana jika ada teman kamu, meninggalkan kamu?
:: takdak masalah...manusia x buli kena picaya juga bah :)

4. Bagamana jika ada org yg tidak suka sama kamu?
:: pun xda masalah, badan derang bah :)

5. Bagamana kalau ketika kamu bgun, kamu dikelilingi api?
:: berlarian lah bah buduh

6. Bagamana jika kamu keseorangan?
:: tenang :)

done! and i'm not tagging anyone for this crap hahaha

Thursday, February 5, 2009

what can i say.....hmmm....

for some reason, i've been perfectly happy with everything around me..hmm, happy might be a bit too overrated, contented perhaps :). even when i am swamped with tons and tons of endless tasks, and even when i'm damned stressed out by it, it never occurred to me that there may be a life for me out there instead of being stuck at the workplace.

i realized that, living a life doesn't mean having to constantly live in the fast lane or having fun all the time. but rather, it's all about coming to terms with ourselves taking into account our shortcomings and specialties and applying it to our daily other words making the best out of whatever we have :).

i found out one of my niece got hurt while playing with her friends...and i never did realize, until now the gravity of how an innocent game could end up to be painful...and the weird thing is, i panicked a little when i saw her picture (maybe the paternal instinct is kicking in hahaha).

it got me thinking and reflect to my own childhood,...i wasn't any different than any of my nephews and nieces when i was waaaaay younger and i can see now why my parents are somewhat overprotective over their children :).

i wasn't exactly the quite little kid who could stay put..i was this careless kid who was always running around oblivious of the dangers around me. and the fact that i always managed to get hurt all the time didn't alleviate my parents insecurities towards me (and the rest of my siblings) :). now, here are some of the injuries i managed to afflict on myself:

when i was...a toddler...
a) stuck a seed into my nose and had to be rushed to the hospital just to get it out (typical curiousity with no specific achievement in mind hahaha)
b) twisted my arm when i fell down from a see-saw (damn the kid who caused it to happen, hehe)
c) had me head sewn after playing around with big sis (no worries, i knew it was an accident sis hahaha)
d) had my face sewn after being attacked by a protective bitch (literally haha)
e) fell head on from a tree
f) the typical run and fall routine

when i was...a kid...
a) sliced my thigh on a rusted zinc
b) kept stepping on rusted nails
c) fell down from trees (yeah..what can i say, i am a monkey after all haha)

when i my teen...
a) got in a car accident with my cousin
b) got in a car accident with a friend in Kuching muahahahaha

hmm...i've been free from any accidents or injuries (thank God) hehehe

all these years growing up, i've always been angry at my parents for being overly protective towards me. my inability to look at the situations from their perspective combined with my own stubborness hasn't made the relationship any easier...but things seems to be changing now, and it's time for me to adapt :).

maybe it's true what they say...we tend to be wiser when we get older from all the accumulated knowledge and experiences. My personal understanding of being wise is learning from the past but not holding to it, and anticipating what the future holds...

i love my life, i love where it's heading and i definitely love how it's evolving hahaha. i know what i need and can always get what i want some other time :).

Despite everything, i am still a kid at heart and an old guy trapped in a not so young dude's body hahaha. Ciao peeps..:P

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

idiotic facebook chat riddle hahaha

i was kinda busy, stressed out and damn sleepy..that is until my ex-colleague came up with this riddle in our facebook chat hahaha

sia ada satu soalan ni.....3 kepala, 6 mata, 8 kaki.....apakah ia???

mutated spider :)

salah laaaa.....teda imaginasi tul la ko ni


benda hidup kaini?

soalan yg buat kami perah kepala utak ni

soalan yg buat kami perah kepala utak ni kelmarin


2 urang sma 1 anjing?


salah...dekat suda tu



kijap :)

bah take ur time

mmg susah ni

cilaka...kin panas utak sa jak ko ni hahaha hints lah bah :)

hahahhahahaa....kami ramai2 satu opis pun nda dpt jawab kelmarin

itu ja la td....

nda buli suda

3 orang tgh buat 3some muahahahaha

hahahhhaa salah laaaaa


melibatkan binatang kah ni?

yaaaa betulll



x dpt owh...dlm utak sa cuma urang sma anjing jak hahaha


2 anjing sma urang teda kaki hahahaha

salah laaaa....adakaaa

anjing, itik sama ayam jalan sma2 hahaha

naaa dekat suda nii.....ada suda tekena-kena sikit


cis...munyit ko ni hahaha

urang, anjing sma ayam jalan sma2?



munyit atas anjing, ayam atas munyit?


hahahhahaha salahhh laaa

12:42pmJeremy give up. pa jawapan dia?


koboi naik kuda bawa ayam

kindet haha

that was a stress reliever...temporarily hahaha. ciao peeps :P

Monday, February 2, 2009

February post...what the heck!!

February is here once again and in approximately 14 days, everyone would start acting weird and most probably humping around like rabbits after few boxes of chocolates and few glassess of wine haha.

noo, i don't have anything against this particular day (even when i've never really experienced the joy of celebrating it complaints though :p) ...for me, it's just like any other days only at this time around people would have a solid excuse of getting some loving hahaha.

looking back, i couldn't recall of having a memorable Valentine's celebration..not even once hahaha, could probably be because:

a) i was coincidently single at that time or
b) i just didn't celebrate it :).

before you peeps start judging me, let me defend myself on the above reasons :). now, weirdly enough, i am always single at this particular time. one thing i've learned all these years is that, Valentine's day and i just't dont get along. it's like, i have this ability to repel the love charged atmosphere from getting myself affected by it hahaha. well, that's one thing great about being oblivious to human emotions, you just don't care much about anything at all hehehe. then again, i'm not much on celebrating anything, so that's another reason to look into hahaha.

since we're on the love topic, might as well share some insights on my personal experience in this matter. for those of you who has been following up on my blog entries, you might've chanced on my love related entries. and i must say, after reading through it, i find it quite embarassing myself hahaha. come on, how could someone like me who has no inkling on how love should be like, be in love? overtime, i realized it was nothing more than my glands secreting stupid confusing hormones into my system hahaha. but even so, the pain was real enough though :P.

anyhow, the valentine buzz is going around quite early this year. i have friends planning for their Valentine's dinner, people going away for a memorable trip together and horny couples trying to take their sex life to a whole new level hahaha. and where do i stand? the same situation as always..single but not exactly desperate or lonely and the best part is....i'm perfectly fine with it :)!! maybe i need to see a therapist..something could be wrong with me..ooooo wait...there is, i'm only human! hahaha.

one of my suppliers insisted that i should get myself laid (that horny bastard hahaha). but after my last escapade (which was a good few months back), i realized that sex is more meaningful when you're doing it with someone whom you're really that says something about my thoughts on sex :).

anyhow, sometimes things are just not what it seems. will try to ramble more about some other stuff once the love charged atmosphere recedes hahaha. ciao peeps :)

Sunday, February 1, 2009

the nonsensical ramblings of a tipsy dude :)

for the past three nights, i've been moderately enjoying myself enjoying the night life..something which i haven't been doing for quite sometime, and felt really good.

i'm not saying that i have (deliberately) been a complete hermit all these while but the hectic work schedule hasn't been too kind to me and after missing out on the public holidays (since december last year),the night outs until wee hours in the morning was a good change, and kinda satisfying :).

i decided to claim my replacement off days on Friday and Saturday, thinking that i would get myself drunk on a Thursday night..well, i managed to get drunk...but the weird part was, i didn't even get a hangover the next morning. so after doing some household chores in the bachelor's pad just to pass the time, i was left with this tremendous sense of boredom and the next thing i knew, i was on my way to the office on my off day! hahaha.

no, i'm not a workaholic (which some of my friends tend to disagree)'s just that, i can't sit around doing nothing unless i was enjoying a tv show or reading a book :). that's just me...i'm the type who likes doing stuff at my own accord :).

ever since the beginning of the new year, i have been extremely at peace with myself. it seems that everything is in place and i was in total control of myself. the only vices i indulged in were cigarettes and alcohol.

my supplier keeps telling me that i should loosen up and get laid...but you know what, i have been celibate for a period of time now and i'm fine with it. Dont think i haven't thought of it but after having a serious intrapersonal reflection, it dawned on me that sex was never a priority for me, i just dont have that kinda libido which would enable me to sleep around like a piece of worthless bastard :). sex is good, but it's waaaaay better when you're doing it with someone who really matters. waddya know...i am a conservative hahaha.

i had my chance to score on the recent chinese new year's eve. i was at my cousin's place having a drink with the guys when one of my cousin's (a she) girlfriend decided to have her way with me. i thought i was okay with it, so we sneaked into a room and made out. but the session wasn't what i thought it would be like...i kinda held back with my kissess primarily because...i had someone else in mind and she noticed it. i was ready to leave when she said 'my ex was a better kisser' and it kinda struck a chord in me, i sarcastically retorted saying 'well, so why don't you go and look for him'. didn't take long for her to break down and cry and start babbling about her worthless ex-boyfriend.

i listened to her babbles, but there wasn't any sympathy from me. i knew what she was going through and i should've said something nice to cheer her up, but i didn't because i've learned that everybody would eventually go through the pain and heartaches of being in love. the moment she was done talking, i stood up, walked to the door and left her on the bed still crying and proceeded to join the guys at the drinking table keeping what had just occurred to myself.

i am an ass...well, twice the asshole i used to be and more cold hearted than i ever was. i just dont have any room to be sensitive or sentimental towards other people. i much prefer playing the devil's advocate, i dont rely on anyone and i expect everyone not to rely or expect anything from me in return :).

man, i am tipsy and in need of a good night's sleep :). ciao peeps...