decisions decisions....

man...i'm tired, and i really do need a long break. i'm not as busy as before (well, maybe i am..), but the feeling of being demotivated has been haunting me for quite sometime and frankly speaking, it is affecting my work performance.

nontheless, i've been professional enough in my work commitments. i do my best to complete every given task and try hard to ignore the fact that i need sometime out from the office all in the name of professionalism.

as i was browsing through my calender and diary, i realized that, i've only taken 2 days off from my annual leave and i have several more off days to clear. i'm not the kind of person who plans the holidays beforehand because in my line of work, anything can change. so basically, i can only do a last minute, spontaneous plan if i were to go on holiday.

sometimes i wonder, is it worth it to work myself to the bones? what would i get in return? am i satisfied with what i'm doing now? okay, i've said this before and i'm saying it again, i love my job and i love what i do...but it's so physically and mentally draining i wish i was doing something else. then again, i think every job in this world are more or less the same, there are always the pros and cons to everything. we can't have everything we want, and in the end, we tend to choose what we think is best for us.

now, making choices doesn't only apply to our working life...in fact, it applies to our daily norm from everyday strangers to relationships. but irregardless where it is applied, the fact remains that, making a choice or decision has its own certain degree of difficulty levels starting from easy to indecision hahaha. it's easy when we know what we want, it's difficult when we want more than what we should have or what we can handle and indecision comes in when we have no idea what we want but still wants to have everything (yeah, can't blame these kinda people though...they're only human, we're only humans :)).

there's a trick when it comes to decision making, for some cases, it's actually two pronged. the decisions we make doesn't affect or apply to ourselves only but also to the people around us, so be wise when deciding on something :).

there isn't a right or wrong when making a decision because, every decision we make are based on what we think and know is best for us. even when what we decided didn't turn out to be what we thought it would be like, don't complain and don't point fingers to anyone because at the end of the day, it was us who made the final choice...we just have to live with what we had decided and try to make it better overtime. ciao peeps :)..

ps: maybe i should call myself Dr. J...and drive everyone crazy with all these insensible ramblings hahaha. cheerio mates :p

Changes

One thing about humans is that they have the capability to change, a change which encompassess everything from the way they look to their actions. And some changes can be mind blowing depending on the degree of alterations, and these alterations varies accordingly :).

As such the level of changes, the time it takes for one person to change vary according to the individuals themselves..but one thing for sure, no one can change in just one night, and that's a fact! But why do people change? what triggers them to make a difference in their life? there're a number of reasons to it, and it all comes down to..self preservation :).

As we go along living, we may have encountered several scenarios and experiences which may be an eye opener for us to make a change. and based on experience, a single minute change can make a big difference to ourselves and the people around us. but any change that we decide to take are not without consequences or sacrifices because change itself is an act of give and take, so to gain something..we must be ready to lose something in return.

so what does change actually entails. for starters, change enables us to be noticed and change brings about a difference in lifestyle. and there are only two types of changes, a change for the better or..a change for the worse. it's all up to the individual to choose which one is which..depending on the impact of their current situation. so unless they clear up their head real quick, a change for the worse is bound to happen and that is never a good thing.

but sometimes, as much as we want a change..most of us doesn't have a single clue on how to go about it. all that's left are just words which keeps repeating itself and baseless hopes that change would eventually happen. but changes just doesn't happen by itself, we need to work for it. so when someone tells you that they want to change but they're just sitting around doing nothing, it only shows that those are just words of false encouragement to themselves and in a way reflects what kind of person they are (yeah, basically an idiotic dreamer who says only what others wanna hear..and i think i maybe one of them hehe).

i've been doing some changes myself for the past many weeks, it was kinda difficult at first but as they say..baby steps are always the best way to kick off anything and that's exactly what i did. so now, i am living my life free from the earthly vices and mortal desires (well, except for the ciggies and the booze..which i have cut down tremendously hehe), including many other stuff and free to do whatever i want (within the boundary lah) without having to think about anything complicated. and i am relying on my instinct and exceptionally good reasoning ability to avoid complications and confrontations in the future hahaha.

ps: one day should you feel like in need of a change, act on it! the change for the good or for the worse is in your hands :)

ciao and goodnight peeps :)....