just plain glad and happy :)...

the past three days has both been a blessing and a mockery of my own life. it's a blessing cos i've seen friends either got engaged or married, a blessing cos i was surrounded by people who knows that being an arse is just my way of being ignorant (and i'm still loved for it haha) but most of all..a blessing cos i am finally close to being clear headed :). had a good time at Jade last friday and made new acquaintances at the same time, had a good stay over at Lembah Impian the next night which included great casual conversations and laughters together with liquors, and a beautiful wedding reception the day after hehe. frankly speaking, i like the way i am now hehe...less clutter in my head :).

i've looked at what i did for the past year and recently and i realized there were a lot of stuff i wasn't proud of doing...especially my last rendezvous, good thing it only happened like twice or thrice (well, third's the charm hehe) and ever since then, i've been..how may i put it hmm..clean hahaha. heck, after a month of free from vice, there would probably be a slot for me in heaven if my time was suddenly up :).

another blessing from what may be the worst experience of my life (so far) would be the fact that i now know what the others would be or are going through having being in the same situation previously. although i can't really tell anyone the best course of action to take cos my advisory skills hasn't been completely restored yet, do know that..some things do happen for a reason and there's always that silver lining waiting to shine through when the chance presents itself...just bear with it (no matter how long) cos all the sucky feelings would eventually dissapear. and there's no harm in crying, it actually helps alot (aside from ignoring the root of the problem and hanging out with the people who would truly appreciate you haha). let anger and hate take over, it's much better to be pissed off at insignificant things than crying over spilled milk cos some people are meant to be hated for their actions hahaha. anyhow, enough about this..we just have to accept that some people are just idiots who doesn't deserve anything for repeating the same mistakes over and over again thinking that they would always get scot free with it..well, there's always that karmic retribution remember hahaha.

anyhow, the people around me are getting hitched...and i can't help but wanting the same thing they have. I WANT A FAMILY TOO!! hehe, but it's a bit difficult to have one when just the thought of being in a relationship after the terrible storm doesn't sound like a good idea hahaha.

you know what peeps, i love my life..and i especially love those people who brought colours to my life such as mi familia and mi amigos haha. i'm just glad that, after all the efforts of being ignorant and trying to keep things behind, good things are finally looking up to me hehehe...

ps: remember this...ignorance can be a total bliss...:)

goodnite and ciao peeps..may you have a good week ahead of you :).