Tuesday, October 28, 2008

ramblings of a tired and happy dude :)...

All these while i thought i was different, all these while i thought i was special and all these while i thought the stuff that are in my head only happens to me and no one else...the questions of life, the what and why and a whole lot more are the stuff which has been playing in my mind for as long as i can remember. well, suffice to say, i couldn't me more wrong.

apparently, we human share this commonality of trying to understand or grasp the meaning behind everything around us. the questions, simple it may seem are just few of the many difficult concept we have yet to comprehend. so, if it's that difficult, then why bother at all in getting the right answers?

well, everyone of us has this innate curiosity to know how everything works. knowing how things work gives us the insight to foretell the next course of action to take. but somethings are just not meant to be understood because it's there as part of our growth experiences and even if we try hard to get the best possible answer, who is to say that the answer is right or wrong? basically, it all comes down to us, knowing our true self and the ethics of doing the right things.

i've always been glad thinking i was different from my peers or anyone else, but as i mature, i realize that i was different because that's what i want to be and try hard as i might..i am no different than the rest of the population. so i looked back, searched within myself and asked 'what is it that i really want to do?'. the answer didn't take long to appear, all i want to do is to make a difference and hopefully bring a smile on everyone's faces..just that alone would actually bring meaning to my own not so pathetic life :)...the only set back is, i don't really know how to go about it and i want to do it on my own free time haha.

i'm not really sure if i had ever touched anyone's life throughout my own life's journey, but i can dare say that..i have been touched by nearly everyone i've gotten to know like my friends, family, strangers, those who used to be friends (haha)..yeah practically everyone i've come in contact with. they've taught me things to appreciate and the things to avoid, they've shown me the world from their own perspective and even though i am not part of their world, i can always use my power of imagination or reasoning to see things as they really are and apply it to my own perspective.

man..i'm rambling again, i just can't help it. sitting alone while having dinner at the nearby stalls right after the frisbee game gave me a chance to see the people around me; their smiles and laughters, the bonds and ties, their happiness and sadness, their clarity and confusion, emanates from within them like a silent beacon wanting to get noticed even if by strangers. but the most obvious thing that really stood out..was their appreciation for life itself. despite the challenges every human beings faces, it obviously shows that life is the only thing which keeps them going even when everything gets rough....and you know what..
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SHIT HAPPENS! just learn from it hehehe

ps: okay...am now thinking of having beer while having durian hahaha. wonder how that would fare? :P

5 comments:

Fridaycat said...

Everyone comes into your life for a reason, no matter how fleeting. It's either to teach you a lesson, change your life...or just screw you up real good. And even THAT has its reasons.

You and I both know you can be a top class ass sometimes (ok most of the time) but maybe there's a higher reason why we're friends la. heh. After all...Misery LOVES company!

cLaiRe said...

Yeah...i use to feel like that too..like feeling isolated from the rest of my friends..meaning like i'm different la ba kunun tu..even if i didn't show it..it's all in my head..haha

whether we know about it or not...i believe everyone of us have touch someone's life along the way..be it a stranger...so bearing that in mind..i always try to make myself act in kindness towards pple around me..u never knw wat that could possibly mean to them..;)

p/s jgn la ba makan tu durian sm bir....aku belum mau lagi kehilangan mu..hahaha

JerryInc said...

Mel: yeah, very true indeed..the best we can do is either to absorb the good and ignore the bad :).

hey, someone needs to be the ass in the group or else it would be damn boring. besides, it's a lot more fun playing the devil's advocate hehehe

claire: like i said, all of us are more or less the same haha.

anyway, sa masi idup pun lepas makan bir and minum durian muahahahaha

QuaChee said...

its interesting reading yr post here despite it being a 'rambling' :) just the dose one needs once in a while.

and by blogging eg on this post, uve already touched those who read :)

ps: on durian + beer... hmm, i thought it was dangerous to do so. would love to hear bout it though.

JerryInc said...

hey QC, there's not much difference in having durian + beer, it's just like having tea+bread hahaha...
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then again, i didn't eat a whole bunch of durians just to prove my point hehehe..i still wanna live dude :) haha