Tuesday, March 24, 2009

morning contemplation...

i'm tired...damn tired, and i'll be this exhausted until mid next month. but despite the tiredness, i am so far...quite happy (i guess) with everything around me.

happiness is a funny thing, the meaning itself is quite relative from one person to another. anyone could put up a happy facade, a smile or laughter here and there pretending that everything is fine.

i could say 'i am happy'...but am i really?
you could say 'everything is going just as it should be'...but is it really?

the sanguine personality one showcases in front of others is just a pretense of the what should have been, a masquerade of ego parading amongst strangers and friends giving off false perceptions of the actual circumstance.

but why give in to life's misery when there are other better things to contemplate? why hold on to the past when the future can sometimes be a good surprise. maybe, just maybe...we can fool ourselves into thinking we are genuinely happy 'if' we keep telling our pathetic selves the same thing over and over again.

so, what is happiness to you? to being able to wake up every morning and smell the new day with the one you love? achieving your goals? being ignorant? helping an old lady cross the street? finally becoming the person everyone thought you might become or becoming the person you have always wanted to be? whichever it may be, what ever it is we're feeling...it is ours for the taking.

hmmm....maybe happiness is just an illusion and we humans are the strange ones.

am i happy? hmm..maybe i am or maybe i'm not...who knows, because i damn well don't :)...

good morning and ciao peeps :)

10 comments:

Yo. said...

sounds like you need some time off, buddy. get yourself some 'me time' and NOT WORK and get yourself sorted out.

cLaiRe Bennet said...

time will tell... :)

JerryInc said...

but Yo...i'm in my world when i'm working :)

JerryInc said...

claire...owh yess muahahaha

Michelle said...

happiness is what u make of it and trust me, i know what i'm talking about :) i've been thru the stages u mentioned.

p/s: gasp! what happened to ur playlist? i came to listen but it's gone! (now u know i'm not a bot :))

JerryInc said...

haha, i guess everybody does Michelle :)

ps: playlist will be up soon...that is until i've found the suitable template for this blog :)

JerryInc said...

in the mean time..just click on the 'Click to listen to my selections' in the sidebar for the songs :)

Michelle said...

cool :) thanks!

Fridaycat said...

Maaaaaybeee....

Your happiness lies in your state of not knowing exactly what brings you joy. It's that constant quest that keeps you going. And although it may be tiring sometimes, i guess you're one of those people who thrive through struggle. Tia tau la...now i'm confusing myself, hahaha.

Plus where's the fun in having everything sorted out, eh? :)

JerryInc said...

aww Mel...you just saw through me :)..

yeah..everything's a surprise when we least expects it right :)