tired and sleepy...

it's 6.33am on a monday and i haven't had a wink since i came to work on a sunday morning until now. feeling somewhat drowsy from the lack of sleep and i'm thinking of getting the day off once this project is done and passed to my GM before he leaves to someplace out of the country for his meeting and presentation.

unfortunately, my immediate boss isn't around and i can't really let our artist to be in charge of the department in the absence of my boss and me in case something came up...but geez...i'm tired...

i'm beginning to wonder...am i really a workaholic? i've been getting that remark quite often lately but i would just shrug it off in ignorance because basically my definition of a workaholic is someone who couldn't stand a day without being at his workstation haha. in my case, as much as i like to be at my desk, i don't go around looking for something to do just to kill the time, in fact...i'm just waiting for that opportunity when i can have that long awaited R&R. plainly speaking, i didn't choose to be busy all the time, they (everyone) chose me to be their miracle worker..someone who could deliver whatever they asked for. sometimes it's hard being an all rounder, not to mention smart (yeah yeah i know...self praise is no praise hahaha).

yeah, this is gonna be a short entry, only because my mind isn't working hahaha

morning and ciao peeps :)

heartless you say? :)

today, i decided to work half day at noon time because i couldn't get myself up and running this morning due to my late night net surfing. the moment i stepped into the office, i realized all my colleagues were hyped up about a murder case which came out in the local dailies yesterday mainly because the victim's wife used to be our colleague.

i got to know the news earlier from a reliable source, but decided to ignore it completely. i mean, there's no point for me to indulge in irrelevant stuff like this when it has nothing to do with me right. even when my boss and colleagues talked to me about it, all i said was...'people live and people die, it's all a matter of when and how' only to be sneered at. i know it sounded cold, but what can i say, i didn't feel anything about what had happened so i wasn't obliged to show or pretend that i cared.

i think my boss tried to convince me to be a bit compassionate to the news but i told her that if i were to read in the newspaper about a dog which got stuck and died in a ditch and a news about a man shot or murdered, my pity would go to the dog. apparently the response didn't bring me anywhere close to being awarded the most compassionate guy in the office :).

i dunno about anyone else, but i'm pretty comfortable with not being able to feel anything. i mean, life for me is much more simpler if i relied on logic rather than the ever confusing human emotions. i can't really say it's an improvement for me, when in fact, i used to be like this before. you could say...it's more like getting back to being the person i was before, the old new me hahaha.

honestly, i don't really care if my colleagues think i'm one heartless bastard.. because as long as i'm happy with the way i am now, i couldn't give a damn about what they think and besides, i'm pretty sure they would come up to me for opinions when they need someone whois level headed to help clear up their clouded minds...as usual :).

life is good :). ciao peeps...

snapped...

for the first time after years of working in this company, i finally snapped at a colleague of mine. i know i should apologize for being a prick, but that's just it...i'm not even the least sorry for what i did :).

i don't think i've ever been so stressed out to the point of verbally expressing it out loud. then again...you know how the saying goes, there's always a first time for everything :).

okay..i do feel slightly guilty, but there's a limit to everyone's patience :)...

ps: would be great if i could tell them, 'I AM NOT A MIRACLE WORKER!' hahaha