loneliness rules...

Isn't it strange how loneliness can affect a person tremendously, of how it constantly keeps our mind running with thoughts of the past, present and future...

living with loneliness most of my life has given me the insight to my own life. the intrapersonal communications i dedicated nearly every minute of everyday has enabled me to look into matters which would shape my own current being...

i've always believed that i was both cursed and blessed with loneliness. i've seen and experience the pros and cons of this state of being, its a blessing for the insights and the protection it grants from human emotions and its a curse for the moments when the silent voice within is crying out to be heard...to be understood, the paradox of loneliness.

i dont think anyone would have any idea what i'm rambling about here,..haha,...just as well. there's no point forcing my opinion on others :). some people find loneliness as another form of torture and some, like me, finds solace...most of the time drowned in my own thoughts.

i once said that 'a man can be an island by himself'...and you know what, i still think so. humans can be so unreliable and most of the time cannot be trusted, and the only person we can count on is ourself. it's logical to think that loneliness is more of a friend than a foe because in truth all the human emotions we go through, we go through it alone. and as much as we want to share those emotions, the experiences, no one can really grasp the true meaning behind everything but ourselves.

loneliness feels alot like...how do i put it...being in a dark tunnel without any sign of light at the end..yeah, thats how i would describe it, but no complaints here though...i like where i am right now...

am rambling here aren't i? heh, maybe i should be a professional rambler :)

ciao peeps :)

the brand new me...and a mean one at it :)

Hello World!! :) (man it's good to say that hehe)...

i've decided to open up a new blogging account and delete the old ones (yeah, note the plural haha) as i figured i need to have new perspectives on my surrounding. my previous blogs are too influenced by my readers and it's eating me inside not being able to say out what needs to be said :).

so cheers peeps :).


*well okay, i lied...not exactly new perspectives instead more honesty to my own thoughts and opinions without having to think about anyone else. in other words, a blog which caters to my ignorance to what other people feels and think. so if any of you people do stumble on my blog and doesn't agree or got hurt with my opinions, all i can say is...TOUGH, deal with it! this is my blog and i can do what i want :).

will make this blog public after my 100th entry or until i'm ready to let the people in my personal life hehe. ciao..