loneliness rules...

Isn't it strange how loneliness can affect a person tremendously, of how it constantly keeps our mind running with thoughts of the past, present and future...

living with loneliness most of my life has given me the insight to my own life. the intrapersonal communications i dedicated nearly every minute of everyday has enabled me to look into matters which would shape my own current being...

i've always believed that i was both cursed and blessed with loneliness. i've seen and experience the pros and cons of this state of being, its a blessing for the insights and the protection it grants from human emotions and its a curse for the moments when the silent voice within is crying out to be heard...to be understood, the paradox of loneliness.

i dont think anyone would have any idea what i'm rambling about here,..haha,...just as well. there's no point forcing my opinion on others :). some people find loneliness as another form of torture and some, like me, finds solace...most of the time drowned in my own thoughts.

i once said that 'a man can be an island by himself'...and you know what, i still think so. humans can be so unreliable and most of the time cannot be trusted, and the only person we can count on is ourself. it's logical to think that loneliness is more of a friend than a foe because in truth all the human emotions we go through, we go through it alone. and as much as we want to share those emotions, the experiences, no one can really grasp the true meaning behind everything but ourselves.

loneliness feels alot like...how do i put it...being in a dark tunnel without any sign of light at the end..yeah, thats how i would describe it, but no complaints here though...i like where i am right now...

am rambling here aren't i? heh, maybe i should be a professional rambler :)

ciao peeps :)