tipsy rambling

just got back from my solitary session..and i've finally found the place where i can be alone, a place where nobody would come up to me and be friendly hahaha.

nearly made another mistake today, decided to be friends with my ex but decided otherwise cos..come on peeps, how do you expect to be 'just friends' with someone you ever cared about, someone who doesn't give a shit bout' what you feel? good thing rationality kicked in just in time or else i would be torturing myself over the same mistake again hahaha.

anyhow, been fighting the onsets of getting the fever for the past couple of days...it wasn't easy, but good thing there were alcohols around hehehe. right now my right foot and left knee hurts, and my phlegm has traces of blood in it hehe. but i dont really mind, cos i know i would get this way with the sudden change of weather hahaha.

honestly, i hate being on the downside...i hate feeling miserable with my own life and i hate feeling weak. then again, these are just some of the things i should be experiencing after having been protected by the defensive wall built throughout the years.

ps: like i said, a bit tipsy hehehe. i've finally found a new port for my solo drinking session :). life's good :P....

good nite peeps...