Life Changing

for those who are into the horoscope stuff, great news...we may not be who we thought we are. Just read through this link from time.com.

anyway, here is the new line-up of the zodiacs:

Capricorn : Jan. 20-Feb. 16
Aquarius : Feb. 16-March 11
Pisces : March 11-April 18
Aries : April 18-May 13
Taurus : May 13-June 21
Gemini : June 21-July 20
Cancer : July 20-Aug. 10
Leo : Aug. 10-Sept. 16
Virgo : Sept. 16-Oct. 30
Libra : Oct. 30-Nov. 23
Scorpio : Nov. 23-29
Ophiuchus: Nov. 29-Dec. 17
Sagittarius: Dec. 17-Jan. 20

if you guys hadn't noticed it yet, we have a new zodiac, Ophiuchus. Unlike the others, this zodiac is represented as a man and not an animal, crustacean or other mutated life form hahaha.

i still think there's a mistake with the dates because look at the period ending for each zodiac, it's the same as the beginning of the consecutive zodiacs. confused much? :D

yeah, everything is changed and it feels like we've been lied to our whole life. so, anyone into committing mass suicide? Cheers to the freakin' bastards who came up with this hahaha :D

the complexity...

here i am seated in front of my laptop for the past 30minutes, blankly staring at it while, at the same time, squeezing my brain out for something i can write about. during the short period of inspiration seeking, a lot of stuff came to mind but nothing practical...everything was about food! KFC would come to mind and suddenly McDonald, alternating between fast food outlets, making me hungrier despite having a filling dinner. geez...and this only means one thing, if you have nothing good to write, then don't force yourself to hahaha.

but over the past few weeks i've been 'plagued' with a self concious doubt of who i really am, questioning my own individuality and my very own existence. i tried blocking it out from my head, but somehow rather a distant or vague voice keeps telling me that i should be 'out there' somewhere making a difference. yeah, it's a bit subjective...i mean, what kind of difference? better or worse? make difference to my own life or someone else's? but the most important question which needs answering to is 'how do i even begin?'.

this isn't the first time i've been bothered by something like this..it has happened before throughout the different phases of my life and i would just shrug it off as something irrelevant. but whenever it does happen, it leaves a lasting deep impression..hence the doubts. call it a 'hero complex' or a 'calling', but whichever name is given doesn't change the fact that i'm still confused by whatever it may be.

anyhow, on a TOTALLY unrelated note...i think i have diarrhea, it maybe because of the amount of food i've been consuming the whole day or probably due to my greediness, i accidentally stuffed myself with spoiled food items hahaahahahaha. the hell with it, nothing a good dose of 100plus couldn't fix hahaha.

ps: "eye spy with my cat eyes, another confusing future ahead of me"...:p. this is one 'pussy' i'd like to hop into bed with hahahaha *disclaimer: this isn't my cat :p...

ciao peeps and goodnight :p...

beautifully confused...:)

dreams, my way of escaping reality has been a big help for as long as i can remember. it's either an eye opener (rarely) or confusing (mostly) but regardless of which one is which, it's always pleasurable.

but my dreams hasn't been occuring as often as it used to or as it should be, or maybe i may have been dreaming but seem to have forgotten about it the moment reality weighed itself on me upon waking up :).

but last night, i had one of the weirdest dreams which had me refreshed and feeling good. i can't really recall what it was, but i do remember it as snippets of events... short glimpses of different events being woven into a dream, like a quilt made from different materials.

like i said, i couldn't make out what i dreamt about but the confusion sure feels damn good as if i am bound to experience nothing but good things in the near future :).

am rambling now aren't i, can't help it though...i FEEL DAMN GOOD! hahaha. ciao

confused hatred? :p

Hate, a strong word which describes one's emotion towards someone or something, denoting negative or ill-intentioned manners, thoughts and feelings. If we were to ask around every individual we meet and ask them what are the things they hate, we may discover that nearly everyone has something they would wish were never there in the first place.

but do we really understand what the word 'hate' means..what it actually connotes? If your answer is no, than you and i are in the same boat. I have yet to encounter anyone or anything i couldn't deal with :).

hate can be easily confused when you're angry, dissapointed, heartbroken, being lied to, used and played around. for example, we use the word hate, such as 'i hate you!' when we're angry at someone, but the fact is, we don't really mean it. the only reason we said it was because...it was the closest shortest word to describe how angry we are. we can't say 'i am really, really, really angry at you!' because by the time we get to the second 'really', the long sentence would sound idiotic haha.

like i said before, i don't know what hate is and hopefully i would never have to. i may dislike somethings but that doesn't mean i hate them. maybe, i just don't have it in me to hate anyone or anything, or maybe nothing significant has happened yet which could push me into having that negative emotion :).

Ciao peeps :P

ps: well..maybe i do have something that i hate. i HATE feeling weak :).